To live life to the fullest

有人欢喜有人愁

2009-12-25T00:06:00.003+08:00

Well , today was Christmas eve . The news came at last mmmmmmm , wasn't promoted at all which to be honest i'm not surprised with the reasoning given . However , i have been at that position for at least 1/1/2 years . So damn you if you think i have not given enough effort in my work . 东家不打打西家 , 看死我们不走 .... 我走给你看 .....

If i thrown my letter and u suddenly give promotion , you'll only just piss me off . So when the day i throw my letter comes , i hope not to see this . Greener pastures here ? Ya right , grenner pastures will only happen elsewhere , not in this stingy place .

Anyway , resume in place . Just needs to check if there's any error and which one to use and i'll send it . After that , i'll be sure to get out of this place one month later .

Congrats to the staffs who are promoted . Well done . For those who are not , continue to believe . For i'm not a firm believer anymore . I'll chose to find another greener pasture for the good of my development .

A million years that is spent on not blogging

2009-12-23T01:05:00.003+08:00

Well , its been a really long long time ever since i blogged . Something unpleasant happened along the way . which is why i am MIA for so long . Anyway , glad to be back to share about life's journey's and ups and downs bla bla bla .

To begin with , i actually got lucky and got Urinal Infection , causing my lifestyle to turn upside down suddenly . Really thought was STD or HIV or something like that at the start , was a bit worried though lol . But once i saw the medical report of that being negative , i really felt this was going to be something short .

In total , i was actually out of work for 3 months . Imagine how poor i have become?
真是穷到要死 ..... 原来人 sick 的时候 for a long period of time is really tough . Everyday waiting for doctors results is tough after all , something i wouldn't want to go through ever again .

Bad luck eventually have to go away before the good luck can come , finally i have recovered a certain % of my original health . Which is good news isn't it lol . Hope all the good luck comes my way from now on .

今天有 colleague 结婚了 ........ 真的好羡慕 ...... when would it be my turn ?
Maybe my past lifetime i did something wrong eh , this life still haven found anything as yet . 真是可悲 ....... 人活到这样不会很可惜吗 ? Although sometimes you gotta wonder , 有时候没有可能也是一种幸福 .....

Anyway , what will come will come . There is nothing i can do if things are not going my way . Hoping that everything will change Soon ,very soon hopefully lol .

The harsh realities of life

2009-04-13T01:11:00.002+08:00

Life in reality is so much different from what everyone expects their lives would be . In each and everyone of our own vision of how lives would be like , life would always be smooth sailing , peaceful and always full of hope .

In reality , this might not be the same at all . We always got to worry about everything ...... "money seems to be the root of all evil" . 但是没有钱却万万不能 . In the money world , everyone would have an idea on how to get them .

Ways and means on how to get them would then evolve ..... with everyone having ideas , strategies on how to achieve it .

Though there are ways and means on achieving your aims , sometimes i wonder .... how many of us would actually be sucked into this and 失去自我 .....

我迷路了 ...... 需要compass , GPS and whatever navigating skills i have to get myself back .....

之前的想法一切都错了 ..... Give me time ..... I'm sure i'll see the light at the end of the tunnels in a few months time .....

Cable Ski

2009-03-29T13:34:00.002+08:00

Hello hello mr batam . :p Here we come ....... Looking forward to that grand day where we can finally take a break , have some fun and ENJOY　~~~~

Things kicked off at 9 am sharp where we were assembled at Harbour Front for a start , ready for rock and roll :p

Well , when we arrived at the area , i kind of wondered , whats up for us ? :p

Well , life jackets are a must since i dunno how to swim (more on that later :p)

Seems like everyone were bright and ready to go .....

We had to get used to what we're in for , so we went for the basic crash course .....
On my first attempt , i dropped :p and one of my contact lenses was already gone ! I spent the rest of the day with one contact lens ... (one more down and i'm practially out ?)

Practially had a hard hard time swimming to the shore , i was so tired after i got onto the shore . Just couldn't get into any rythmn to swim ... dunno why :p I guess i'll get that sorted out soon .

Well , after completing the basics , we went to try on the more advanced one .... ? how to use your hand , body and leg combination to play !!!!!

Well , we tried for the rest of the day ... just couldn't master it .... keep spending my time swimming back to the starting point , swimming takes a chore of me .... every failure becomes a more tiring task :p

Well , got pretty sick of falling after a long time and decided to play with the basic ones again ....... This time , fell short on the final hurdle and guess what , another contact lens GONE !!!! :p

With vision becoming a problem and almost time to go back , i decided enough is enough ...... hahaha ...

Fun sport , but Tiring .....

敢玩就don't be afraid of injures . 看了你摔了无数次 , incurring injuries along all parts of your body , i must say , i'm pretty impressed :p 我带着另外一种眼神看着你 ...... Brave indeed .

Finally , thanks for the day with everyone and i'm sure we need today to rest our muscles back ..... :p

Hello Bloggy :p

2009-03-07T19:49:00.003+08:00

Finally have some time to do this ..... been busy of late ..... studying late too .... Wats new isn't it .... ? Planning and planning and planning ..... life seems to be getting from bad to worse .... but nvm , lets get the title first and see where it takes us ......

I can endure for a few more months .... no problem .... economy is bad now .... i shouldn't be aiming somewhere else now too ....... Working towards another promotion would be good this time round .

Messy accounts ? hmmmmm , first time encountering this ..... sure makes me wanna puke with all the entries down there ... :p But nevertheless , a nice experience ..... a little bit more of these kinds of jobs pls . After that , i wan fully china jobs ......... because basic would be sufficient . Time to look at the more abstract ones which would generate the most money :p

Things which are not done properly during work , learn from it . Only then will u know how to settle things the next time round .......

Gotta take some time to take my hatred off some of the stupid things around me though ..... time will solve everything .

Oh ya , as if my bad luck's not gd enough , how about this for a joke .... ? 3 people whom i do not want to see at all actually appeared in front of me one by one for one single day in the SPACE of 20 mins ...... Thats a fcuking joke if you ask me .... :p

There must be things which can make my life more meaningful other than the shit word i am handling now :p Waiting for things to happen :p

Thats it for this edition of my blog :p

An extract which i got from one of my mails . Enjoy ~

2009-02-22T15:39:00.001+08:00

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Self declare MC

2009-02-18T11:40:00.002+08:00

Before i did a self declared Mc , of course gotta ask if i am needed . Since the answer is no , better still , take MC . Use and sleep longer and rest fresher better .

Sleep halfway even best , was told that i am released .... thats good news to me .

I remember someone mentioning something to me before , in this industry , what you need is luck ... so that people will book you and stuffs like that ......

I had enough of the people down there , 做了 not happy , why don't i leave for grenner pastures ? From now onwards , i shall try and find jobs now and see if there's anything available .

我只想happily go to work , happily settle my job , happily 跟colleagues 打成一片 .... and not be seeing things like backstabbing , gossiping behind your back , etc etc etc . 此处不留人 , 总会有地方需要我的 .... Worse come to the worse , quit audit and go back to banking sector .... I won't feel i waste my time , just felt that probably i'm not fit for audit . Its afterall a good experience to see whats going on around you .... .

I made up my mind ... hopefully , the end is near .

Unlucky period for me ?

2009-02-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

最近的运气好像不是很好 ....... Had a bad bad fall while on my way to work , in the end , i hit both my kneecaps , one was badly injured .... the other was surprisingly ok ..... Obviously , i became a cripple for a few days .... Till now , almost 90% is healed ... it still hurts for now but at least i can walk and run a bit now ..... So its just taking a pretty long time to heal .

Why torture me to be on this job ? i really cannot adapt to the style of my senior ... i seriously seriously x 1 million times cannot adapt . 你的 style 有你的好 .... however , 一定要 wait until i see the big picture before i realise . I must admit , my patience is limited . I easily get frustrated when i don't see the big picture ..... on your job , i always have to 海底捞针 , 捞到的东西也不懂是对还是错 .... 你只会跟我说 you do , i'll check later .....

Checking to me is a waste of time .... why don't you just tell me the correct way of doing it ? By telling me to do first and you check later , if you don't get back to me wats wrong with it , am i going to know anything ? No right ???? I only feel that that is double work . Simple as that . I have no wish to be so inefficient for i know time is precious . Lets make things simple , efficient and i can settle my work asap . 我需要时间 handle 我的生活 , i don't want to be doing things like no life . Get it ? I'm willing to come back to sort things out , but if u're telling me things will get changed in the end and you do it your way , then wats the point of me doing things in the first place ?

你有没有留一手 never teach , i dunno . I seriously don't give a shit , i can only see things whatever it comes my way . If i have to go through it painfully to resolve the problem then so be it , there is nothing i can do .

When manager rush 你 , you took back everything that you needed to settle from me . If you don't trust me in the first place , why let me do the things for you ????? Do halfway and take it away just because the manager needs it urgently ???? Settle it yourself then ......... 我真的是浪费 Willingly stay back 的时间了 ......

I've seen positives of the job and i have seen negative aspects of it ..... 人与人之间是需要相处的 ..... 你的 style i cannot adapt .... so much so that temper always flare up easily . For what purpose may i ask ? Why do i have to make my life so tough for myself when i can easily just pass through it happily ? Coming to work with a hot mind is tough to work ....... Last week already , just let these few days pass by quickly . I thank you for your limited guidance , your style simply doesn't suit me ..... I'm getting very sick with you seriously ..... as much as you are sick with me because of my silly temper , it just takes 2 hands to clap seriously ......

Get someone else to help you , i am seriously not interested anymore . So what if its a listed company , i rather get exposure through someone else than through you , i seriously regretted switching the china job with this job ..... Especially since i flunked my acca exams badly .......

Acca like shit now , work like shit now , bad luck with me now ?

What else can come next ? 今年根本不是我的年 .......

I want a fresh piece of everything ........

Time to seriously consider taking out my resume , update and send to other companies ....

Semi-finished product 就 Semi-finished product ...... Maybe my exposure will grow bigger in other areas .....

In Short , 我真的受够了 with every single thing in the company ...... 人家是被jobs 气死 .... why am i the reverse ? 是人气死我 ......... HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!

Sick of my life now , can something good please happen now ???? SAVE me ......... i'm seriously unhappy for the umpteen time in 2009 .

心里话的时间

2009-02-04T22:22:00.004+08:00

The space is clear here . Speak whatever you want .

又到了这个时间 .... 说话的空间 ...

今天想说什么呢 ?

To stay in this line , i need to be composed . I am not composed enough at all . Easy to panic when things don't go my way . I pity my poor senior , because we are close enough , u are able to take all my shit . Real sorry (even though i keep apologising to you) . 希望我能对你a million times better to repay you for your 宽容 .

宽容is really something i don't have . 有的话 , 我早就forgive 某个人了 . 因为今天 she was hungry after a certain time in the evening . I was worried her gastric would occur , but yet i didn't ask her for dinner at all . 竟然叫我的兄弟to bring her down for some food for my sake . Like i said before , my heart has a soft spot towards you , 凡是跟你有关的东西 , 我一定会notice . 只是我真的不想 do anything at all .....

原谅我的selfishness , 因为我不想time and time again 被你influenced.... 我只想lead my life busy and yet peacefully . You once took a big part in my life , probably not anymore . I'm not very sure myself , for i know i still care for you . Although i don't really understand why you are checking whether i am back or not these few days and what subjects i am taking . Forgive my selfishness again , but i don't wish to attend it with you together (听你说话的meaning 好像有这个意思....) .

如果有人想知道reason why i didn't go for the china Dinner invited by my boss , 就是因为你 . Because i don't wish to see you down there . I rather stay in office and work during a Friday night than to see you .

现在的我 , 只想远离你 . 把你从我的 hard drive delete away . Sometimes i really wonder , if i suffer a loss of memory and forget about your existence , maybe life for me would be much much peaceful .

Hard work for you tonight blog , to store my input . 读就好 , i don't really wish someone to question me on what i said . To me , its not rude , i don't mind letting people know what i think , but its just that some things are better left unsaid . Because I don't want people to form bad opinions on other people based on what i said . 这样子对人家是很不公平的 . Nitezzzz Bloggy .

Time for the chipmunk to charge somemore .

Happy New Yearr ~~~

2009-01-30T01:11:00.002+08:00

Happy new year to all ..... Bull Year , new year , new hope , new wishes , new hmmmm , 总之everything also new :)

年初一 , normal 拜年 season as well ....more ang paos received ? :p Don't expect me to be giving any red packets out soon , even though i knew someone wished me good luck in searching for potential targets :p

我会努力 , 要相信爱情的出现 .... 不管我的 bad experience 有多少 , 我还是have faith in love . 相信它才有可能得到它 . 不是吗 ?

年初二 , home cooked food . Excellent meal . Your skills have improved :) 抓住男人的胃 ? 这句话一点也没有错 . Anyone who can cook like that for me 真的会把我抓住 .... :p Thanks for the hospitality :)

年初三 , boring day . Don't even feel like coming to work . No choice , i gotta work ..... so come lor .... What a boring and unproductive day ... might as well let me stay home and sleep :)

年初四 , working day as usual already ....... time to start your engines :p ]

在这里 , 我这个时候想说些心里话 ...... 我不觉得需要和你有说话的 purpose ..... so pls kindly get out of my sight . 以前见到你的时候是情 , 当我wake up 的时候就是恨 . 我恨你不把事情处理好 . 就这么简单 . Plus 我把我所看到的secrets 跟我所看到的 normal 你 compare 起来 , 就是不明白那个才是真的你 . People may disagree with what i say here ..... i dun care . I only trust what i see and feel .

这样的same old words used towards others 只会让我 shake head in disgust . 因为我也听过 such words before . 因为我的心 is not hard , watever you say will always affect me . I'm sure of that .

My conlusion is : 你没什么好的 .... 我不需要有regrets . If we have same job (which i saw from the planner we do indeed have) , i really wish i can say no to the job . But if i say no , who dares to book me anymore ? Job is more important than this i feel , 我怎么样都要以大局为重 . This period is my best chance to do achieve something for my own self . 在这个时候 , 我又有想走的念头了 , I'm only a semi finished product , i can't go now ......

Given a choice , i would seriously quit this job if i had other better lobangs . 就因为我不想跟这个人工作 .

谁能告诉我how should i walk this path or chess piece ? I'm at a loss .

Spring Cleaning Blog ~

2009-01-24T14:03:00.001+08:00

Well , what to say about what happens recently ? here we go .... :p

一句话 .... 忙死了 ... why didn't i feel like this last year ? only god knows haha ...

忙plus studying at the same time ( 3 subjects to begin with ) is real tough ...... Although i keep sleeping during lectures , i managed to copy everything they say ... God knows how i did that ... 我不知不觉有了一些神功哈哈哈哈哈 ....

Finally the long awaited break has come ....... coming at the right time i should say ... :)

但是就在这个时候 , 我不得不做一个选择 ...... "Are you free on 2nd Feb?" Book you for china job . 随着situation 的转变 , this time round would my answer still be yes ? To be honest , i already knew this situation was going to come . But since it haven't come yet why bother ?

Much deliberation later in the day , i said no to China for now . I guess i'll regret this in time to come , but 要以大局为重 .... Acca still the most important for now ..... with Acca scared no chance to go china ? Plenty of chances i tell you .

So since i already made this decision , pls don't fail too often and complete this paper asap . I wish to become a lot closer to the acca title come this end of this year . :)

The Race has just begun ..... 兴奋是一定会的 ..... But that would also mean the path ahead is tough . E.g would be just like the premier league title race . I'm pressured to collect 3 points every game . Even a draw can't satisfy me . So i'll probably need 38 x 3 = 114 points to be satisfied with the season :p

This year's target relatively simple : Achieve Acca targets first .... the rest talk later :) 今年的目标就这么简单 ......

What i need is time now , to study , revise , learn at work .... and hopefully to become a smarter person come the end of the year ..... 中国你等我 .... 我一定会回来的 ......

Now let the CNY Begin ... i'm already in NEW YEAR Mood .... FOOD , Ang Pao (Luckily not married :p , but i forsee what kind of questions i would be asked from this year onwards ...mmmmmmmm)

Happy new year 2009 ~~~~

2009-01-06T05:34:00.002+08:00

Beautiful fireworks... what a way to start the year .....

However , been real busy of late .... dunno y.... but it seems like my audit career has just begun to be honest ...... feeling the stress for once :p I don't mind hard work , but its not really fun when things are outstanding ....... Owing many many things to manager ..... I hope to give a solid piece of work by the time things are wrapped up ....

Documentation fcuk tup ... hahaha ..... i knew that .... so time to improve on that ..... guess i need to read up more on what others are writing .... at least the words sound like this : "There is still plenty of room for improvement" . Thats nice to hear , at least i'm not reaching the peak where there's no more room for improvement . Now that would be scary isn't it ? All along , i dun believe my skills are any good .... hopefully with this added opportunity , i would be able to learn more things out of it . SA 了 , 要好好努力 .... 要不然怎么 promote ? Next level would be entirely different . That would be the time when i want to see all forms of audit as you'll be solely in charge . 加油吧 ......

Lessons has just started as well . First day so far so good , hopefully i'll keep things going and start at an early time for revision . I believe i can clear the papers this time round with ease with proper planning .

What brain does christians possess in their minds ? A client who seems nice actually gave me a trashing down on sat . Are you mad or what ? Don't insult my profession let me tell you . I hate it when someone questions my professionalism to check things . I would go all the way to quarrel with you if you dare to do that . Anyway , you are not qualified to rebuke me . I am only qualified to be rebuked by my own firm personnel and not you . So shut your gap . You call yourself a christian ? Wake up ..... why so secretive about things ? You got things to hide ? In the christian way , God probably just sent us down to do a spot check on you people .... and yet you react like this . Will God be happy ? I guess i'll leave it at that . I have no wish to meddle with you further . Crazy Woman ~~~~~

Finally , 就是你了 . 这一次的见面不同了 . 是我变了吗 ? 错 ..... 是我已经相信不了你了 ..... 既然我跟本都不能相信你了 , i see no point in talking at all . 再说下去也没意思 .... cause i won't know when you're speaking the truth and when you are not . 自己好好保重吧 . From now on , i'm not going to care one wee bit . 你的一切 are immaterial to me anymore . 我会去寻找我的另外一万种可能 ..... moving on to the next stop . 永远不再回头 ..... 我没有 regrets , 能做的 , 说的 .... 都已经做了 ..... 既然得到的是silence over it , 那就算了 ..... Your dilemna in answering just shows you are immature after all . I always believe with proper communication , nothing will happen out of it . Yet , you just chose to settle it in an unprofessional way , which i find it unacceptable . Silence is golden ? I can't agree with the way you do it , 毕竟我们寻找的东西可能都不一样 ..... My imperfectness will be someone's assets in future . I am sure of that . Its your loss , not mine . Cause i believe i have seen the real you . 相信我的眼睛是最好的 .....
you will just be the invisible person from now on .

敢爱敢恨 , 这就是我的 motto . 本来不会有这种ending 的 , 可惜. 这次真的是end 了 . As much as i don't wish to say goodbye , but this time round , I give up . 你走吧 . All along , i've been preaching about persistence . 原来我的 persistence 这么没用哈哈哈 ........

End . Thanks .

Everyone appears in your life for a reason , 原来 you are a passerby after all . I was mistaken to hop on the bus and rode with you along . Along the cross junction , i was actually expecting to turn right , but you turned left . Like all parallel lines , our paths will never cross again . Take care dear .... (last time i will ever call you that)

Thanks buddy (or whatever you want to call it) , hahaha .... you are really AB in office oh , still got time to go and notice such things and mention to me . Sorry not to say anything regarding it .... But here you go , i just written on top . Hence , i guess this is a gd enough answer for you 吧 . I knew you would read this .... take it that i wrote it specially for you to see .

Signing off from office at 5.58am .

Plenty of things still to hand up .... so time to go home and relax a while b4 i go back to the church job :p

人生最大的挑战

2008-12-22T06:26:00.002+08:00

If there's any challenge in life that is tough , then this is the one . True , i did something similar during army , but that was when you are fit . Now that fitness is an issue nowadays , how far can i endure ? What is my endurance level really like ?

100km Survivor ..... i know this sounds awesome ..... BUT the last 30km was horrible i can honestly tell you ....

We went along as a group ..... fought on well until the 50km mark .... where a few gave up .... by the 70km mark , almost everybody gave up ..... seeing that i'm still ok ...i felt i had a chance to do it ... so here i go ......

I did a lot of catching up and walked fast ...hoping to meet the timing though ..... However , that is the start of a mental torture ....

After all my teammates gave up , i found that walking alone is a very tough thing to do .... not easy when you don't have anyone to walk with you ....... Second thing would be water problem ...... I did not have any water left with me as water bottle oso dunno throw where already :p Luckily , i stopped some cyclists along the way and asked for water :p

However , i was quite pissed with one auntie and uncle .... asked them for water , they bo hiew me and went off ...... oh pls , will one sip die ? Because of being pissed with them , i walked even faster :p 化悲愤为力量 :p

走着走着 ....... there are a lot of times when i really thought of giving up seriously ...... emotional torture sia :p I really wished at that stage there was a wee bit of support :p

I always believe in one motto in my life : Work hard for the things you want in life .... never ever give up easily ..... this applies to everything ..... 努力努力再努力 .... one day , you'll reap the rewards of it ....

Finally , i am PROUD to say that i didn't give up ........ I finished the RACE :p

人生最大的挑战 .............. 成功 !!!!!!!!!!!

Now i can safely say that i can retire for this event for life :p

一次就够 ...... if its for charity purposes , i will do it umpteen times :)

Happy Birthday To Me ~~~~~~

2008-12-16T01:25:00.002+08:00

很多很多东西想blog , but first .... lets do it one at a time ......

终于看见你了 ..... 感觉不同了 ..... 是我知道太多了吗 ? I really need to forget every single thing . 并重新给你一个 fair assessment 吧 .... 要不然对你也很不公平 ..... We will let nature take its course . Anyway , welcome back . I miss ya lots tbh . Lets see what happens next . I will be keeping my options open anyway this time round .

Next , 不要create such stunts can or not ? I did nothing at all . Don't make me feel so scared and irritated for god's sake ? What have i done to deserve this ? 算我拜托你 ... leave a breathing space for me .... i dunno whats wrong with you nowadays .

Nice meeting after all . 你果然还是跟我以前想的一样 .... 应该是个好女孩 ...... 你是个可以考虑的对象 .... I will try and make an analysis out of it ...... 期待明天的 meeting . :) Nature will take its course here obviously . :)

Surprise of the day , you actually called and sang a birthday song . I was so so surprised ........ 看来可能those things which i knew were uncalled for .... they were probably some talks to pass time i guess .... 你也需要我重新 assess 一下 in terms of what kind of a person you are really like . Welcome back too ~~~

Next , Sis ~~~~ My God ... Getting married ? Congrats ~~~~ But why do i see the look of you worrying about money ? 你什么都觉得贵 , the need to save here and there ..... Is your plan a bit too early ???? Even wedding tables you also need it to be profitable ???? really OMG ~~~ I dunno about that , but i felt that it seems to have come a little wee bit too early .... But the decision is yours . I wish you happiness :D

Ikea has nice beautiful things ....... Looks like its high time to re-decorate the house and suit it to what i like :)

For the first time , i made a wish on my birthday . I hope it comes true ......

YEAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2008-12-02T21:31:00.004+08:00

Yes yes yes , all over ...... Guess i did score the equalising goal today :p

That means time to choose subjects ...... look at other things ..... plan my own things .... what to learn next and everything ....

Looking forward to the new Sem , the new year and everything ......

First thing 最想见的人就是 Dear 了 , 不过不可能的 i guess ....... Dunno how your preparation went .... anyway 加油吧 .... 希望那些lucky stars will help loadssss :)

Actually 老实说 , 没有你的日子 ..... life has been very very peaceful .

有你的日子 , 脚步每次都被弄乱 ........ Why ? 爱上了你才会这样吗 ? No answer to this question ..........

在见到你之间 , 就找我的old classmates 先吧 :p

Before i head to my books for my 2nd paper

2008-12-01T22:17:00.002+08:00

All right , gonna forget what went on today ..... All hell just broke loose honestly .... and i'm the beneficiary of the backslash which went on .......

成功的路程真的这么难走吗 ? Its been a long long time (Years ago i guess) since i ever felt the effects of the backslash .... I must admit , given the amount of time i had , i tried my very best .... but its not enough honestly .... Time to change a game plan i feel .... if not how to accomplish my Objective ???? Time is flying by my friend , please wake up ....

Now , you got a chance to redeem yourself ..... And you can do it tomorrow . So lets go do it and bring back some glory .... :p

Examssss

2008-11-30T01:35:00.000+08:00

In the past , when exams finish , you look forward to a long period of relaxation and freedom .......

Nowadays , when exams finish , WORK comes right back at your face .........

Given a choice , i rather relax BUT with relaxation means no money ...... SO in a realistic world , obviously you gotta get back to work .

Give me more strength please , i need energy for these 4 days ..... I DON wanna FAIL ......... MORE MORE Brain powers please ....... I need them to survive these 4 days .....

Mumbai Attacks ?

2008-11-29T00:43:00.002+08:00

Seriously , i felt this attack was disgusting , none to say the least . To me , upon reading the details was like seriously wtf .... taking Rifles and spray their fire like nobody's biz , and to use grenades to blow the area up ?

Thats sick imho . Damn damn sick , RIP to all the person who have died , especially to the singapore women . Obviously a big _!_ to the people who have started these attacks . If the british and americans are the people you are targetting at , do it at their country for god's sake . Stop behaving like sickos and going on a mass killing spree .

If i have the power to , like in the old chinese days , 灭the offender's 九族 would be fair enough punishment for you all . You sickos deserve to die instead of the poor souls .

No place in the world seems safe enough nowadays , the world is fast becoming a sick place after all it seems .........

Something's not right

2008-11-21T20:44:00.003+08:00

something's just doesn't sound right ...... 不知道为什么 ..... 就是这么觉得 ...........

Dun come and piss me off ...... i got no time to entertain you seriously .........
The more you do it , the more pissed off i get ........

所以 , conclusion : 不要来烦我 ........

Thanks ~

2008-11-21T01:24:00.003+08:00

跟你聊了之后 , 反而 possess more energy now . 谢了 .... 我最好的 colleague cum friend .... 你可能就是一个真正能算上是知己的人 , 我会珍惜你的 ........ heavens must have sent ya to lend me a helping hand in times of need .... seriously i appreciate that .... 总有我可以报答你的地方 ........ :)

一定会有的 ..... 还有一些我答应你的事我还没做到 .... haha :p

等我回来吧 .... meanwhile enjoy your work :p

I'll come back recharged and hopefully fitter :p

Been doing plenty of running every 2 days .... time to up the length of the run :p Currently at 3 - 4 km i think :p

I need to hit a high quota so that i won't struggle during the stand chart run :p
Wonder if the run is going to be carried out as there's a china job but worry about that when the time comes i guess :)

Now must progress mentally , physically and ready to fight the "Big Devil" ...... Gambate :)

老实说 , is the spacing out period really good ? I know i missed you lotsss and lotsss and lotssss , i guess its a good time to really space out .... for then each one of us will really know where we stand in each other's hearts .......

我知道我心里怎么想 ..... 你呢 ?

Well taken Leave

2008-11-20T19:26:00.002+08:00

在拿 leave 的同时 , 也要对自己的 next few steps 好好想想怎么走 .......

While making notes and studying at the same time , have thought a lot about what goes next ...... Finally , i have got an answer to it .......

很好 , 终于得到我要的答案 ....... 如果是这样的话 , Please work towards it ..... I wish to see everything falling into place by the end of year 2009 ......

For now , 这是我努力的舞台 , 我只能努力 ..... 我希望明年的我再次看到这个问题的时候 , i can be happy to say that its all over :) For now , the real challenge starts from now ...... enough is enough ...... 不能再这样下去 ...... Please provide me with all the strength that i need from now on .....

好了 ... 就这样 ..... 我要为之前的我做出改变 .... 加油加油加油 ..... :)

十年了 ...........

2008-11-18T11:05:00.004+08:00

Recently went on mc , but saw some things down there which kind of brought some thoughts into me .....

A baby was sick and both her parents were worried ...... Surprisingly , the nurse actually asked them this question ..... 这个药会比较贵一点 ..... Parents actually answered : 多少钱都不是问题 , 只要她好就可以 ......

没什么事拿mc 的我 , felt like shit at that time .... 同时也被这种 scenario 有所感动 .....

Change of scenario 吧，if the sick personnel has nothing to do with you at all , would anyone actually have said money is not a problem ? I seriously don't think so .....

亲情果然还是最伟大的 ........ 有了那个情字在 .... 什么事好像都能 settle 掉不是吗 ???

十年了 , what have i done and promised through these 10 years ? Have i fulfilled much ? 跟着钱 round and round in circles , 我到底 gain 了多少 , lose 了多少 ????

没用的人就是没用 ..... touring around in circles for 10 years . Wasting my time seriously ..... time to wake up at last ????

No matter how bleak all situations are , i'm not giving up at all ........ 放弃根本 is not within me at all .... 努力努力再努力 ..... 我必须每天都这么提醒自己 ..........

Please give me all the energies that is within me , i am determined to do whatever it takes to make things right ..... 对于亲情也要 , 爱情也好 .... 一切的一切 .......

Time for me to fight through exams for these 2 weeks ..... I want to become a winner after this round of "fight" ..... 还是那句话 .... 努力的努力 will get you somewhere closer to where you need to be .... every little bit of 努力 will bring you just that little step closer ....

Time to balance studying and exercise ..... will have some good cycling programs coming up now that the whole stretch is linked :)

Planning ahead is crucial now , to attain what i really want .... 十年的这种lifestyle is enough ..... 我不要再这样下去了 ........

给我多一些时间好好想想吧 ..............

Last 2 days of overnight madness ?

2008-11-08T09:26:00.002+08:00

spent the past 2 nights in office and sleeping when it hits a certain time :p sounds crazy but if there are things left undone and i dunno how to do , guess i better stay back and settle it ..... at least i will learn something out of it i guess ....

Time to pack up and go home now , exercise , copy notes and come back refreshed in the late afternoon for another go at it ???? Might skip the man u vs arsenal game though ...... work or soccer more impt ? WORK :p

If we change it to another perspective ...... Work or Her more impt ? No doubt , there is only one answer in my mind .......

Not bath yet , not brushed my teeth yet ...eeeeeek :p Looks like i better head home now :)

最近我是怎么了 ????

2008-11-06T17:29:00.002+08:00

Feel so lethargic nowadays , laughter in me has become one of the bare minimum . Why ? 是你的关系吗 ??? 忽然missing you a lot ..... :( 连做梦都会梦见你 ...... and you are only gone for a few days . 最近看了一本书 , 应该是一本爱情书 ...... 里头里看着一些吵架的 scenario .... only make me think more about you and the squabbles we had ... 说也奇怪 ... 一边看一边笑 .... 也不知道在笑什么 .......

笑很久没有跟这个女人斗嘴了吗 ? 我也不知道 ......

随着时间的movement , i realised 我真得越来越想你 ......

Missing you real badly :(

50 Km ????

2008-11-02T15:08:00.002+08:00

Signed up for 100km walk around Singapore Island of late and oh my god , there's a training session of 50km :p Did this kind of walks before during army days BUT from then till now , so many years have passed :p Do i still have the ability to keep up ? This would be a test of endurance , mentally and physically i guess ...... Mentally i have tonnes of it , But physically ??? There's where the challenge sets in i guess :p

Walked and walked and walked and walked ...... 走到我累死了 , 脚也快不行了 .... i know problems would set in the next day hahahaha :p Right now , i am sitting at home and resting and wondering how to get to work tomorrow hahahaha :p 真的是有够 Shit .......

要想想一下怎么complete 100 km ...... sounds crazy but i am determined to do it ..... 我不会放弃的 ......

Why did things suddenly disappear ? 不止是that poorly wrapped thing , 那个box 呢 ? Hmmmm , 我没去注意.... 可能老早被丢进dustbin 了 ..... 是这样的话也好吧 .... someone told me not to bother at all .... But i insisted on bothering ...... 最后得到的是什么 ? Slience ? 哈哈哈 ..... 我想要的答案可能forever 都不会有 ....... 这是我的feeling ....

如果是这样的话 , just too bad ....... 那就end 吧 .... 要我professional 我办不到 ..... 对一个不会说真话的人 ..... 你可以get lost .... to think 我一直可以跟你说真话 ........ My very best wishes to you then .... don't think we will communicate again ? 这也是我的feeling

明天would be the start of my revision exercise ... 所以加油 ..... tough month ahead .... if i want to pass .... this is the time .... 我不会放弃的 ........

兰冰雨 ........ 咱们拭目以待 :)

What to make of this ?

2008-10-22T22:07:00.006+08:00

Woke u up and u reached client's place earlier than me .... win liao :p Anyway , you come or dun come i still have my breakfast .... so not going to bother about that :p

跟我说you are going on a date for what ? 去loh , 我也不管 ..... 那个人如果有本事的话就给他赢吧 .... i have no comments about that . 有些事不需要懂太多 ..... you are not my "anyone" oso , of course you have a freedom to go out with whoever you want .... 玩得开心点就好 ..... 说不worried 是骗人的 , but if this is something you cannot control then don't bother .... there are many more important things waiting for me to handle .... 有感觉的话你自己会回来的 , 不用我去find 你回来的 .....

如果没有的话 , no matter what i do , end product will be the same ........

因为有时间,所以我又乱乱想了 .... Just write down what i feel i think will suffice :)

Timing 是什么东西呢 ? 我只知道我的timing 就在这几个月 ...... once magical moment 一过 , 就不会回来的 .... Enjoy while you can ? The rest is not up to me .... Its up to her .... 我只能把我有的show everything out 吧 ...... after that 不再是我的问题了 .... i can only say , i'm enjoying every minute of it at the moment .........

sometimes , 可能我需要的不是一段感情吧 , 而是一些聊得来的人吧 ..... 我不知道 .... this is just an opinion ....

爱情这个东西对我来说太complicating 了 .... the game oso looks hard to play .... i will never get this right ....... believe in love and love will reward you one day ? 可能我上辈子是一个 Jerk , 这个lifetime 一直都在这样飘流 , 没有这个命去让一个人好好喜欢你而你也喜欢的人 .....

I have to say , 如果这个fail 的话 , 我真的不会再相信爱情了 .......... i can't stand my heart beating fast and suddenly dying just like that . Shouldn't have said such things after all eh , spoils the mood though :p

Maybe what you said is right marie , i should have left this alone long ago , 可能我还需要bang it hard to wake up 吧 ....... 这还是我第一次不想give up 的situation . Fight on 不见得有用 , 不fight 就是game over , simple as that .

如果真要让我受伤 , please hurt me real real hard until i can't pick myself up again please .... This may sound crazy , but i don't wish to get involved in anyone again anymore ..... other than u ........

Of course , life can't evolve around you , but 我不想被情这个字 tie 死自己 ........ 我不知道怎么做 ... leave it to nature ....... i'll just follow the flow .......

我说太多话了 ...... 又在胡思乱想了 .....................

就剩最后几天了 , 能watch over you 多少就多少吧 .....

后天你要上JB , 就让我陪你最后一次for the year 吧 ............

Dear 生病了 .........

2008-10-22T07:55:00.002+08:00

Sigh ... thought you said wanna take mc this week , how come suddenly really fall sick ? Doc said you are too stressed and tired ..... sigh .... 好心你一下 , 不要这么workaholic ..... everyone has its limits ...... 你让我很担心 ..... Lunchtime 看到你的时候你的脸色不是很好看 (Still bother about your image at that time ..... I REALLY WANT TO FAINT :( )

之后你一直睡 , really got me worried . 我竟然叫你的room mate 要好好照顾你 :p

Anyway , 看到你没事就好 ....... Even though i disobeyed you and u refuse to talk to me oso fine :p 我这样做是没有错的 ..... 错就错在太关心你了 .... :p

I can't believe you're still sleeping anyway , You better get to our meeting place in time lor (Even though i doubt so :p)

Lets see whether i am right later :p 希望我今天是错的 haha :p

Life of late ...............

2008-10-20T23:55:00.005+08:00

Busy preparing for surprises , copying notes and accompanying dear to work during the weekends . 找东西给她吃不知不觉变成我的责任 ..... 也看见你慢慢 become heart soft 了 . 你又再一次 show your kind heartedness :p 同时也说了一些奇怪的话 ...which obviously i dun understand . :p

Anyway , dun think they mean anything as well :p Just thought i'll probably quote them out :p

Was actually commenting that malaysians know a lot of languages and i don't . And she said this : 想要娶一个Malaysians 就要懂很多languages . 不要说cantonese , 就连你的hokkien also sound weird . If anyone loves trouble , i think the language trouble is huge down here :p

Next , 无缘无故 for no apparant reason told me this . I once had an ex before , ask him travel to Penang find me he don't want . SHIT , if you ask me to travel over , i would gladly fly over :p 那个人根本就是一个笨蛋 . 连这种小事都不能答应女朋友的人 might be better off dead i guess . Looks like a simple enough thing to accomplish .

Last quote : Had lunch with some colleague and her boyfrend today , was telling her about it when she asked how's that guy . "That guy hmmm very mature , won't irritate people " was what i commented . :p She was saying things like so good , good for her . I got someone who's very irritating though :p

Irritating 可是你说的 .... 去了中国之后我是不会管你的 ..... :p

Luckily enough , this is our first job where we can work together eh .... interesting for a change :p Hopefully 这段时间的相处多多少少能培养一些东西出来吧 .... 我很期待着..... :)

加油吧 ..... Final exams is coming ..... 大家的时间都会比较忙了 .......

兄弟们之间的conversation

2008-10-18T07:49:00.002+08:00

Friday came quickly and fast enough ..... 兄弟的gathering is just in sight .

不过呢 , 我竟然skipped class 陪人吃饭去 . 有人一直说i would use this incident in future and talk about it , but 我没想过这么做啊 . 有时候真的觉得好奇怪 ...... 为什么好不容易找到的机会竟然会变成一个session where 只有我被骂的分 ..... surprisingly .... 被你骂到我每次一定说不出话来 .

你竟然会跟我说很久没骂我了 , 想骂一下 . I really feel like fainting in front of you .

This kind of contagious effect 竟然可以 last 到你的家 . I am impressed with your "skills" haha . :p

吃东西也要想我有没有东西吃at the shop first before you can finally go in ? I'm a rubbish tank , anything is fine with me . :p

怎么你的house mate 像看到鬼这样 , 好像要吃掉我这样 . I don't remember offending her . I only know i better get lost asap .

"You should be honoured to have dinner with me." 笑话 ..... i know you got plenty of people lining up based on your call rate ..... i couldn't care less about that ..... But 我知道我的脸好像有一点黑 . 有多少人在还不是一样 ..... 至少我知道是我用心下来关心你的 . 疼你 , 照顾你的 . 这就够了 . :) And importantly , 你还不是跟我一起吃 .... so whats the problem ? :p

很久没两个人在一起了 , office rumours are getting more and more ... I dunno how you feel , but i dun think its a gd thing . I hate all these nonsense that are going on . I feel like taking a gun and shoot everyone down to stop all this . (Actually , shoot anyone will do , everyone will just shut the fcuk up upon one is shot .)

As for the gathering ,

兄弟想问什么我都tried to answer . 不知道有没有让你们知道你们想听的situation . haha :p 不知道最后大家想的是什么 . 我还是很clear what i want . Anyway , i was late . 对不起了兄弟 ...... 你们although 会了解 , but i feel sorry for being late ......

有些qns 还是很tricky , 不知道怎么回答 ..... 问问我自己可能就有答案了 .

Busy week

2008-10-15T23:51:00.002+08:00

busy busy busy ............plenty of training this week .....Learning a lot which is really good , but Look at what i am doing now ??? Staying in office hoping to recap what is being said these few days ...... I dun mind working hard now , for i know that my experience is the least . All the more i should know more faster to help out in the audit work . No need to bother senior so much and can handlle things on my own . Helps promotion faster eh ..... ? Dear 最近的 attitude towards me 也怪怪的 . 时好时坏 .... 不知道为什么会这样 ......

Saying such things in front of me won't arouse my jealousy , dun give me a chance to give you back the same treatment , u'll probably cannot take it :p

好奇怪 , why do i see my flowers suddenly appearing out again ? :p

你终于想让它们出来了 .... especially my heart :p

Anyway , might not be going to china so soon , i hope to leave now ..... 至少我想知道 if we don't see each other often enough , what will happen .... ?

Anyway , 你的surprise , 我最近才学会 ... Thanks to Xiao xia for your assistance :p

Time to get the whole product out then :p

我人缘很差吗 ?

2008-10-12T19:40:00.003+08:00

我最近是不是走霉运阿 ?

有个鬼在 place A 已经很糟糕了 , 为什么还有一个鬼在 place B ? 平时的我待人不错啊 .... 怎么会这样啊 ... can someone pls send an angel to help me out ?

I realli think i am fighting this long battle on my own .

The more you people want to go for direction A , the more i want to head for direction B . 我才不会像你们低头 ..... 我会让你们改观 ........ 一定会有这么一天的到来 . 我很期待着 . I will die fighting despite the tramples on me ..... 我要在这种 shit condition 勇敢的活下来 ......

来吧 ........ 我做好准备了 .

中国之旅来了 ...... 看来很多时间不能见面了 ...... I'm going to die fighting ....很久没见面而能想着对方的话 .... 这就是爱 . :)

奇怪的一天

2008-10-11T01:21:00.004+08:00

没想到 eventually , 我还是在office 今晚 . 这次的目地不同 . 很多想不透的东西 .... 在office 有时便能想通 . 既然要陪她们过夜工作 (i just need to serve drinks , make them energetic when they're sleepy) , 就do it with a kind heart 吧 . 毕竟 , 我的心理也不是完全开通了 , instead of pondering over who betrayed me and being angry with them , y dun i trust others instead ? At least this group of people needed someone . Just that i'm the only one who could help them out tonight . ：）

虽然我能做的很少, 不过能够忙她们的忙也算是我能做到的 .

我真的在ponder 的事就是 : 我所认识的 dear 是这样的吗 ? 我虽然不是 100% 了解你 , 但是也不至于完全不了解你吧 . I am forever a kid to you .... 因为一开始 , 我就只会 irritate 你 . 不怪你会这么想 . 可能是有一些fucker 在office 知道没有这种treatment , 而在旁边说风凉话 , creating disparity . 毕竟, the corporate world is like that .People don't have such things , so they try to create harmful words to destroy the situation . 因为人总是自私的 . 只要我能原谅这种自私 , 这个世界就太平了. From what i see , dear 自己没有这种本事说出那种话 .

现在的我只能把我对你以前的心态调整过来，以一个全新的姿态面对你 . 这一切可能不够 . 不过never try never know . 我知道我对你的努力根本都不够 . 我会努力 , 慢慢努力 . 能打动你的一天可能也会慢慢靠近 .
你根本都没有男朋友 . 这个骗我的心情我能理解 , 因为我是个只会找事来irritate 你的人 . 这可能是a long long road , 不过想要得到就一定要有付出 . 我付得出这种代价 , 因为我知道好女人不容易来 . 就算再好的女人也会有 weakness .

我会把一切的nonsense 都忘掉 . 从新出击 .... For now , we just have to wait . Standstill 有时不是一件坏事 . 是给人冷静的机会 . 希望我没看错人 . 我愿意拿我了解的你来赌一赌 . 当我真的赌输的时候 , i will leave with no regrets .

结束了 .....end .

2008-10-10T15:48:00.003+08:00

On mc today , guess i have my answers as well . I don't care who the fcuk reads this as well but i got something to say : FUCK off 虚伪的人 .

Uncover 的东西太多太多了 . 让我吃了一惊 . 知道了事情跟不知道差很多 . 知道了事情 will make you make a decision out of it . 你们这群人的心机很重 .... 尤其是你 .... 面对着你们 , 我不知要怎么react . 要我带着面具做人 , 我办不到 . 我就是我 , i don't feel a need to change anything . 要改就是改我自己 . Be a better man out of it . 你们的恶心 , 让我very disgusted . 同事也很失望 . 我的confidence 不会被你们打倒 , 这种人的存在只会让我更想勇敢 ........

我不会像你们那样在我面前说一套 , 私底下做另一套 . very very disgusting way to act . 人有好有坏 . 这就是你们的disgusting 之处 ........

I just felt a big slap in my face ...... 我被打醒了 ...... 我信错人了 ....

2 roads left to choose . 请选者吧 ....

我又被打回到原来的世界 ....... 重重的跌倒了 ..... i need strength to carry myself up again and walk . Be a better person out of it .

我好像又回到一年前的时候了 , 为了忘记某人想出国了 . 机会又来了 ......... almost the same timing as well ...... ironic isn't it .....

Day 1 of challenge

2008-10-08T23:47:00.002+08:00

Time now , 9.50 am

Challenge 的第一天 , 竟然看着她对着电话笑 …… 没关系我忍 …… Today’s objective is to endure n endure n endure ….. 这是我今天的使命 …… 不认输的精神才会有 % of winning . Come on alvin , 加油加油加油 .

Time now , 10.05 am

要去China , that means I can’t see dear for 2 months . Is this another challenge? 如果两个月不见不会很糟糕吗 ? 两个月时间我应该可以提高自己的讨厌之处吧 ….. 也希望我们耐得起两个月的Time .

Morever , studies wise , 会有问题 . If confirm 的话 , 我想好好去读书先 . I got about 13-14 days if that’s the case . 好好去读 , 把results 搞好 , 让自己的plan 能complete in time . 2 years is all I got . Nothing more , nothing less .

Next , RT wise , last week would hit my completion date . which is = shit ….. how am I going to get out of this mess ? sigh , I seriously need to think how to settle this .

Challenges after challenges everyday , 我不会认输的 ………I want to overcome everything . Today would be a planning day I guess . Confirmation should be soon I guess . Once everything is known , I woud take leave immediately . dear 暂时就不管了 …Studies is more important . 有了 studies 就能有本事好好照顾dear , be more secure in my future also . 有缘的话一定会在一起 . 没缘的话怎么样都不会在一起 . 毕竟她也知道我心里是怎么想的 . 随缘吧 . 

Time now : 12.20 pm
We are going for early lunch at sakae sushi for boss’s farewell . See got what food of course must shoot . :p Before I left the table , I declared openly at my table : Alvin Poh 是偏心的 ….. :p Trying to think of what to buy for dear … saw something which looks delicious . Saw you having that type of food last week as well . Oh well , its called a roll :p

Time now : 1.45 pm
Dear saw the Ho liao and was like saying wow :p 你高兴就好 …….我也会高兴 ….能找好东西给dear 吃也是一种幸福 …………

Time now : 15.30 pm
不知什么时候开始 , 两个人一起被 colleagues / table mates shoot . 相亲相爱 . Both of us just laughed about it . 看不出她有什么uncomfortable 之处 , 只是会一直跟我站在 same frontline . :p 发现不跟你吵其实也蛮好的 . 真不明白为什么以前总是吵 .

Time now : 17.30 pm
Loads of shit to do , I need to go RT . Boss left the office for good . 多一个人走了 ….. Am I the next ? 如果是我的话 , Dear 跟我的缘分可能就game over 了 . 如果是这样没办法 . She’s not the one for me after all I guess .

Time now : 11.30pm
Trying to finish up the chunk of shit at work and go home and sleep . Looks like I gotta stay till at least 2 – 3 am . Hopefully I can work faster . Jia you ~~~~

Time to prepare for day 2 of challenge .

Latest : 1.30am
Mate says she have bf ..... i am confused again . Who can i get the answer from ? I don't care now. I need the answer . I can't have my life being played around at this instant . I am determined to get the answer out within these 2 days .

Challenges

2008-10-08T01:09:00.002+08:00

Everyday is a challenge . If every single one still don't feel that by now , you're not leading a proper life . My biggest challenge everyday is you dear other than my work . 你一直带给我 things to ponder , 不管我做多少surprises 给你 . I realli thank you for being a part of my life as of now . 虽然 you blocked all avenues of areas where i could get info , 我知道现在只有靠我自己了 . Success or failure i dunno . 就看我们真的够不够缘了 . You requested for change . 如果我真的想跟你在一起 , 变会有用吗 ? 不是因为我是这样的人你才会对我也有感觉吗 ? 你的Actions obviously 出卖了你 . 你对我是有 feeling 的 . 不明白为什么你要 be very cold at times , and be warm at times . 你的心太难抓住了 . 我的challenge , 就在于怎么抓住你 , 不再让你走掉 . 当然你request 的 change 我只能说 i try .

You only know how to think of ways to chase me away , i must think of ways to change that . Only then will this challenge be overcome .

人的耐心是有限的 . 我对你的耐心是 UNLIMITED 的 .

就让我们为每一天的challenge 奋斗吧！！！！！

Meaningful Words .........

2008-10-05T20:40:00.002+08:00

在我不知所措的时候 , these are the words which brought comfort into my mind .

You never know when your guardian angel will be there for you so I have to try...
I am sending this to you to see how many actually read their e-mail .
Your response will be interesting.. Pay attention to what you read.
After you have finished reading it, you will know the reason it was sent to you.
Here goes :

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..

Question : Does the person i met so far come for a reason or season ？ I know its defo not for a lifetime ......at least at the moment .

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

Question : Did i have a difficulty ??? I'm not so sure about that . Bored till death and suddenly something interesting comes along ? Was she there to meet my needs only ?

They may seem like Godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Question : If thats what you refer to , maybe they are only here for the reason that i need them to be .

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Question : Without any wrongdoing , 我说话了 . 说了and expected something , never really to expect that heaven is playing a joke on me .

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

Question : 她每次都在Act .......i don't have a choice but to take a stand .

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Question : Do does that mean to say its time for me to leave ???

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

Question : Yes , the season has come and past . Maybe its realli time to say end . when i really leave this company , everything will be end . I'm sure of that .

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to
have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to
use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Question : When would my lifetime lessons come ? When would LIFETIME relationships appear ?

Thank you for being a part of my life. . . . . . .

. . ... . . . . whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Question : I have nothing to say regarding these 2 phrases .

Farewell Boss ....my turn soon ?

2008-10-04T22:34:00.005+08:00

Thanks boss all this period . The next time we see each other would probably be in the bars and pubs . By that time , maybe both of us are already out of the company .

Leaving is a good thing , for career , and for personal wise .

不得不承认 , 这是对的 .

Following your thoughtless mind around doing things which are silly ? People may have different sets of thinking towards that , silly if you know nothing is going to happen out of it . Not silly if you think nothing is definite . Something might just happen to change all this .

我的心还是一样乱 . 为什么maintain what i am now is not good ? I really don't see what is wrong . Childish is only all those people around me can say , 你们只会这样说 , 有谁会说likewise 呢 ? 就算真的 childish 又怎样 ? At least , i won't cause people harm . Being yourself is the most important thing after all . Why try to become someone you are not ? I'm getting very sick everytime someone mentions this . 忍受是为了什么呢 ?
Enduring n enduring n enduring , Is that Really healthy ???? That is never going to be a healthy move .

不要一直弄我心乱了 , 有时候 i rather wish we never talked or knew each other before . 我不后悔喜欢你 , but if those are the ploys or plays you wanna use after all this , someone who just lets you manipulate , i seriously think this is too much . 你要我听你的话 , 不要accuse 你 , 不要对你说谎 , 这些都没问题 . I can lower down my ego just for you . But if you're going to repeatedly treat me badly (i can accept this as well) , STOP showing me attitude . 你只会 increase 我想走的念头 . If i ever told you i am leaving the coy sometime , you will think i am kidding again . 你从来不知道我什么时候认真 . 你不知道我有多喜欢现在audit 这个job . 跟你说也是没用的 . 你的动作太怪了 , i cannot catch which direction u're heading to . Thats y i am always confused . I dunno what you want seriously . 如果给我选者 , 我宁愿不要把那天的东西全部说出来 . 我不怕丢脸 . 只是不想让你牵着走 . If i can find a girl to spike you i will , but that girl would be hurt as a result . 我不是一个 bastard . 干不出这种事 . 就算很喜欢你也不可以这样 .

好想真的就ignore 你for good . 真的很想这么做 . 我有必要为了你而乱了我的阵脚吗 ? Your every move and intervention would decide how i place my chess pieces . sometimes , i just felt its enough . 走了 , 离开这间公司也好 . i know i don't have to face any last min U turns . Whichever way i wish to turn would be more relaxing too .

我不会跟你说我要走的 . 就算我真的要走 , 我会在你on leave 的时候走 . 这样对你对我都好 . 很喜欢你 , 但又受不了你那种奇怪的attitude . I Just feel FCUKED . Realli felt like being FCUKED in a BLOODY Long time . sorry blog , 让我发泄一下吧. 就一下下 . Let another bombcome down between us 吧 . 结束我们之间的缘分吧 . 这样做我知道我会伤心 . 但是长痛不如短痛 . Getting more and more sick as i type this . Shaking my head in real disgust .

我永远是最坏的人 , 我真的想一走了之 , 什么都不管 . showing 关心不单单是喜欢你 , 就是觉得with my attitude , i can bring some life back into the once bored person . As i type this , i'm realli surprised i didn't smash the laptop away .

我很无奈 . Someone save me !!!!!!!

让我走吧 .....静静的离开对我最好 . 舍不得我也要走 . Get Lost from my sight from now on . 对你越坏越好 ........ 我竟然还会说想让你成为最幸福的女人 . 弥补你Ex 的 weakness ? 林如燕小姐 , 不要以为我不敢跟你凶巴巴的 ......ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

发泄完了 , 我真的不想说话了 . Sorry blog :(

Sighh , 我真的不知道怎么做 ......................... please open up a path for me . 我累了 . This should not have happened in office at all . 我最不喜欢玩这种game 了 .

你要我Grow up , 行 . 我还是那句话 , 我知道什么时候该wake up , 什么时候该 childish .

我真的不知道要写什么 . 我好烦阿 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Change of plan ......

2008-10-01T13:07:00.002+08:00

I'm leaving . I want to leave for the big 4 . 寻找我的另一个新天地 , 寻找我人生中一万种可能 .

有一点你错了marie , 是因为她们没找我 ... If 我知道事情而她们有找我的话 , 我一定会fulfill my promises to these 2 women . 要不然的话 , I don't see a need to appear in front of them . 需要我的时候我一定会出来 . 就算是被她们利用我也无所谓 . Because part of me dun wish to see them unhappy . Part of me wans to do a part in making them feel happy . Part of me knows that as long as they are somewhere in this world , gd enough . I don't have to know how they are faring unless there is a need for me to know . This may sound very tough to implement and do , but this is what my life principle is about . This would apply to both guys and girls , but of course only to the very important ones . You are definitely one of them , but with ah lau , "him" with u , i know that 有那两个人在 ....我根本不需要担心 , for they will take care of you and your needs .

I'm always a +ve person . The world just suddenly played a prank on me thats all . And i'm going to laugh it off just like i always did every single day of my life .

And , high time i wrap up all the things i need . Resume , revision , EVERYTHING . I'll need time to sort that out so that i can get everything out in time .

Time waits for no one , wait and u'll lag behind forever :)

And yes , i dunno why , this 2 persons won't get out of my msn list forever this time . No more blocking . Lets be professional about it :p

上天的一个玩笑

2008-09-30T23:56:00.004+08:00

Well , time to spill all the beans now that everything is out . Don't be surprised everyone . I am as shocked as you people are .

"i got a boyfrend" . Wow , that must have been some classic oscar award winning sentence . I seriously don't believe that at the start ....now i do :p I'm wishing her all the very best from the bottom of my heart .

加油 .....不要受伤 . 因为受伤的话 , 我一定会带你走 . 我会自己照顾你 , 再也不用别人了 . If i let u go today , and u eventually come back , i'll know you're mine . I will only be the rock behind to support you , just like i did for Fideliz 1 year ago . And yes , i have not forgotten her . Joanne just brings back similar memories of her . (Just where did i go wrong to leave myself with these 2 similar cases hahahaha :p) Only that this time round , we are on gd terms . I will always protect you . No one in office would dare to bully you when i'm around . Although i am a kid to u , you have nvr ever seen my serious side at all . No one ever has anyway , unless you know me very very well . I respect your decision and hope u're very happy out there . My thumb of rule still stands , 我会弥补你的Ex 的weakness , 让你成为世界上最幸福的女人 . This , i promise you that . 我只是一个FOC的保镖 . 就算我以后有了女朋友也一样 , 还是会Protect你 .

"以后你有女朋友就不会了"

笨女人就是笨女人 .....太不了解我了 .

希望我不会看到这一天的来临 , 因为that would mean to say that you have been hurt yet again .

Ever since i came back from leave , everything just seems like a dream . I went through everything . From being at a high point all the way right now to the bottom . 我不难过 , 也不伤心 . 不会埋怨 , 因为 this is fate . Still , I have to go through all these , 我的心很累了 , 受不了了 . 我也不会想离开公司 , 因为this is the place where i still liked . 如果我是为人而活着 , 那我就是为那些我爱过的女人而活着吗 ?

原来我还是个loner , 我看 this lifetime i'm destined to be one . These two incidents are slowly making me lose hope in love hahahaha :p 我的心还有多少能量能tahan 这种joke 呢 ?

I missed the entertainment in office cause i created all the surprises in office while i was not around . I'll be making a formal speech when i return to make sure everyone gets amazed . 第一个让我送花的女人就是你 hahahaha , ironic that you are not the one .

thanks marie . i know i had to fight for it . to no avail , but hey i tried :) its always good to be crazy at times and she did make me crazy . This is love :) Oh yeah , btw , u made me cry twice yesterday . I cried for fideliz once . This girl made me cry twice . SHIT~ hahahahaha :p

thanks samuel , gave u lots of rubbish , yet u came down to support your brother . Excellent bro man . I gave my all boss , just not enough this time i guess . :)

thanks sebastian . neither you nor i expected it , but its true . She got a bf :)

thanks anne . supporter in office . everything has been said and done . i had to do it . :)

DINO , u won't know this anymore . because i'm not saying any more things . hahaha :p

Anyway , this is life ~~~~ and this is what makes life fun :)

Now , to pick up myself from the ground floor and start climbing again ?

P.s : My brothers thought i was siao during this stage , but the fact is i wanted to really do something super duper crazy for once . You can't blame me for thinking that way guys , 你们是不会了解我的感受的 .

明天会更好 ...............:) :) :) :) 加油了 everyone ~ i wan a promotion next year ~ :P

Recent events

2008-09-29T00:29:00.001+08:00

发生了一些事情 ....现在不好说 ......我把事情查清楚 ....就能给大家一些答案 ...

现在的我很希望答案是我想象的那样...........而不是她所说的 ............

笨蛋不该做的事情

2008-09-27T03:47:00.002+08:00

笨蛋做了很多很笨的事情 ......总之我不管了 .....i wan a shot . 以前的我是shit , with no sense of direction , anyhow bang here and there . 现在不会这样了 .

Thanks for the rescue of the brothers . I was realli surprised you guys came down to cheer me up :)

Showdown ?

2008-09-24T00:51:00.003+08:00

本来没有东西写的 .....还想问我是不是疯了 .....lets start off the topic . Could be a big day to remember . :)

今天 as usual , carried out my duty caring role :p buying breakfast for my dear :p and passed by mcdonalds and saw orange juice . So i flew in and buy oso lol .buy liao put in office and await for her to finish up my thoughtful breakfast lol .

Everyone got in and got seated and our day's work began again . :p Soon , the breakfast came out and our dear colleague DINO was complaining that i was biased . Only make breakfast for her hahahahah :p i dunno how to siam from that situation , can only joke around and hope it got through :p

Afternoon came , nothing pretty much happened . Work was flying in from all angles , i must be ready by 5.30pm if not i'll be late for RT . Fcuk me , 5.30pm came and i was busy . Tried to finish off everything quickly , and chiong out of the bloody office by 5.45 pm . Due to the F1 shit , the whole area was jammed . before i left , dear complained that she had gastric again . But i couldn't miss RT . so i dropped an sms to her and went out for RT . The clerk at RT was fcuking kuai lan (Arrogant in short ) , eventually my good kaki said i was in the wrong . So forget it lar , shit happens sometimes .

After RT , thought of my dear and somehow thought that she was still in office . How right was my instincts (Guys' instinct are very bad in nature , how come i so zhun ? ) A lot of my frends said before , i have a feminine nature , so for once this time round , my nature actually got put to good effect) . Say dun want dun want dun want , but yet , still took a long long time to get away from office . Saw her and actually told her i was very hungry , can eat or not ? :p she said ok but as we walked along , i actually scolded her for not taking care of her health .

As to how i bumped into her , my brain started working for once . Based on what i understand of her , she's a road idiot :p So , she wouldn't go to bugis mrt . I should exit city hall mrt to get more chances of bumping into her . 老天果然在帮我 . 真的让我碰到了 . :)

Eventually , we sat down and eat and eat . :p 还是老样子 , just that this time round , u started talking weirder things :p 不要以为我没注意到 , 我只是装作不知道而已 . 你想说的东西我大概都能知道 .

Ladies and gentlemen , the climax of this blog HAS COME :p I want to copy every word down . I wanted to remember this moment forever . After all , this is my very first time i have got involved to this level . :)

Suddenly , i got asked a very funny question .

"Can i ask you something serious and personal ?"

I sort of expected what was to come .

"Hmmm , what is it?"

"You have to promise to answer me truthfully and sincerely , cause i believe we both shall have no secrets . Ok ?"

"Yep . since when have i lied to you before?"

"Hmm... how to ask lehh? :p Actually , i've seen lots of changes in you lately , being caring , xtremely concerned , treat me real good and stuffs ... Many people ask me why you treat me so special with extra care , and i would also like to know an Honest Answer too ...Do you have any intention in mind"?

Before i carry on to say my reply , i was anxious to the max . What am i supposed to say ?

I called my biao jie (Nvr pick up :p) Marie , disappointment leh , i realli expected you to save me .

I called my very good female frend in my company (Nvr pick up also :p). Anne , you also disappoint me , i realli expected you to give me sound advice .

我曾经为你和你的Girlfrend 帮你过 Good Kaki , this was well documented in my blog where you actually drop tears of sadness in M1 Nokkia call center at Suntec City . This time round , 就是你来帮我了. I cut and paste the scenario to him and to my big boss SAM . This 2 should know lots about how to deal with this situation . My good kaki gave one option , mr big boss Sam gave another option . What to choose ?

Option a : Call her and tell her about it .
Option b : Sms her and tell her about it .

I used my brain and think again . I used my understanding of her to choose my option . If i call her , its late . I dunno what will happen .

If i sms her , it would be better also . After all , she only wanted a truthful and honest reply . As long as i gave a very truthful reply , i should be ok . I don't want to joke about it and make dear angry . So i gave a very long thought about it .

In case you people are wondering , option B is my selection .

"其实我对你有好感 :) 这就是我的真心话 ." This phrase , was given by some experts online that night .

The first phrase was contributed by them . The 2nd was contributed by myself . That phrase is to show her i was sincere and not talking nonsense which i have always done in front of her . :) Thanks pals , you were there when i needed you . 真的很谢谢你们 . :)

Talked a lot with my big boss sam after that , i realise all this while 我变了 . 因为她而变 . 变得懂事多了 . 因为有了她的出现 , 我再也不是一个人了 . 对一切事情都很积极了 , 不再像以前一样 . 真的很不一样 . 我真的爱上你了 .

我们的相遇 , 很奇怪 . 是从吵架而开始的 . 见面的时候还好 , 不知道从什么时候开始 , 就很喜欢顶嘴 . 第一次 , Also documented in my blog for your info , i totally ignored you for months before one fine day , someone who is looking for you let us started talking again . 第二次 , happened recently . Also documented here . 你说了很多让我伤心的话 . 我真的好想哭 . 我的心那个时候真的碎了 . 我不知道怎么捡起来 , eventually 冷静了好久好久 . 我原谅你了 . 这是DINO 的功劳 . 我真的要谢谢你 DINO . 真的很谢谢你 . 你也让我原谅了某一个人 DINO . :)

你一直说我是对你最坏的人 . 没有人这样对你过 . 这是所谓的 "男人不坏 , 女人不爱吗" ? 真没想到 . 这个Phrase 竟然会用在我的身上 . 我真的没想过 .

Looking forward to see you tomorrow , 你今天穿的好漂亮哦 . 我没说而已 . 第一次这么觉得 .

我的心情现在好重哦 ......满脑子一直想着我们俩个故事 (even as i am writing this) .

如果这个成功的话 , 晶晶我真的谢谢你 . 没有了你 , 就不会有我的存在在公司 . 也不会有这段故事的开始 .

我说完了各位 . 辛苦 reading 了 .

越来越清楚自己的感觉

2008-09-23T00:09:00.002+08:00

自己的感觉怎样自己最清楚 . 谢谢大家的advice . Lets do it . :)

大家的祝福我把它放在这里 . 希望能带给我好运 .

不知道怎么回答 ?

2008-09-20T02:49:00.007+08:00

Leave is finally over . A few hours left before my work life begins again . How fast ? 借助这次的休息 regain 了一些体力 , 算是不错了 . Thank you RT .

Miss you for one week already ...终于见面了 :p 还是老样子 . 你一刀 , 我一刀 . Be thankful no one chase us away . Such a noisy place also can 顶嘴 . 真是服了你 . 不知不觉地 , 竟然会跟你一起window shop . 你也同样说了为什么会跟我一起shop . Faint :p

回家的路程 , 你说了一些话via sms , 我真的不知道怎么回答 .

"If you continue to treat me this good more and more , i might misunderstand you later on lehh! :p Later i think you like me how ? Then people will think so too , then how ? bleakk :p"

看了是有些stunned . 怎么回答呢 ? 我选择了缩头乌龟的做法 .....

"Har , what talking you ?"

"hahaha , nothing de :p"

时机好像不是很好....我不想take the risk . People 常说 : " Do not shit where you eat . " 这句话可能是对的 .

事情一旦dun go as per planned , something is gonna happen . 毕竟 , we are in the same table . 大家都会觉得 weird i believe . sigh , 我这样回答对吗 ? 我别无选择 , 真的只能那样回答 .....

我不知道 , 也不想回答那个问题 .

A Day to remorse about

2008-09-15T15:06:00.002+08:00

原谅别人,能让自己更快乐一些 ......

这句话根本没有错 .谢谢你 DINO . 我错了 .....

我原谅了这段时间惹我生气的人 .尤其是你 . 很抱歉 . 你觉得我把你当垃圾似的 ...相反的 , 我最关心你了 . 所以一直以来 . 在别人的眼里只会看到我对你不好 . 没有人会看到我对你的好 . 但是,你竟然不是这么觉得. 我错得离谱. 没有想到会是这样. 我会改 ....这次会为你而改 . 值不值呢 , 我只能说值 . 我不管将来会怎样 , 我只知道现在的我要珍惜眼前的这段缘分 . 希望你给自己,也给我一个努力的机会 . 因为你我都知道 . If another timebomb comes along and explodes , 我们俩真的就game over 了 . 我还想continue , 不想game over . 没有credit 了 , 所以这就是我的last token/credit 了 .

这次把我该说的都跟你说了....一切听从上天的安排了 .....

希望结果不要是我想的那样 ..............

RT ?

2008-09-15T00:15:00.004+08:00

Had rt of late , finally had time to go on an exercise spree ....... Had lessons today though , two consecutive days of rt took its toll on me .... i was so tired i fell asleep . But all the while , whatever the lecturer said , i was able to copy down everything . So , while in sleeping mode , i somehow managed to do it ... god knows how i actually did that lol .

DINO 你说得对 ....我知道该怎么做了 ......给我多一点时间 .................

至于你呢 .....我不想见到你 actually ...... bye .......

Looking forward to the next week . Time for some serious K 书 Session .

Oh ya , went to town to watch liverpool vs man u over the weekend . Good crowd , great result (Oh yeahhhhh , finally dominate and win) . Finally , we have a legitimate title challenge now . :p Keep up the good work . Now bring on chelsea and arsenal .

Leave

2008-09-13T02:57:00.002+08:00

On leave at this period , is it a good timing ? Just when things are about to get better and 日子会越来越舒服 , 竟然又吵了 . 真的是 OMG . 弄你生气是我的不对 .......不过 , 为什么你会说出那些话呢 ......? 我真的好失望 ........ Maybe 这个 period on leave , 对我来说也是好的 ...... 不出现在你面前可能会好一些 ........ 真的好痛心你会说出那样的话 .......

你受伤了 ......... 你说你受不了了 ...... 真是的这样的话 .....我宁愿什么话都别说 ......这样不好吗 ?

你要我对你好不是吗 ? 你只会说我对你最坏了 ...............你可想过我对你的好吗 ?
I am 90% certain the answer is no . 因为一旦我道歉 , 你又把野蛮跟霸道再一次摆在我眼前 . 我如果又说多了 .....你又会说我很坏 ..........

Utterly disturbed by you .... 我现在也不知道怎么办 ....... 我们身上的 timebomb 太多了 ....谁的会在几时 explode 没有人知道 ..............

你这一次令我太失望了 .............. 我想我需要冷静几天 ........

这段时间我就不管你了 ....你爱怎样就怎样吧 .......

Please go away ................

2008-09-06T23:00:00.003+08:00

今天 ......接到了一通很奇怪的电话 ...... 原来是以前认识的 .....

我不知道你打来想干嘛 .....saying that it was a wrong call . none of my business . 你却让我想起一个我一直不想想起的女人 .........

我不想知道有关你们的事 , 所以 leave me alone ...... 我不想再听到你们的消息 .......

心跳了 ?

2008-09-06T02:55:00.003+08:00

最近过的日子是不是太舒服了 .............. 怎么会想让你赢呢 ........ ? 我心软了 .... 这是很肯定的事情 .................还是跟你在一起感觉不错 ..........虽然一定要闹别扭 , 只要我懂得让 ....一定 ok .......

心情好久没这样了 ........... 心动摇了吗 ??? 我不知道 ....别问我 .........

一个转变的开始吧 ..............我很期待着 .......

原来这才是我想要的

2008-09-03T15:09:00.002+08:00

since zoboing in office now , might as well add some things to my blog . 原来这才是我想要的 ....... 原来我自己对这个company 的打算是这样的 ....Learn everything and siam after after that and not to siam now and go elsewhere . Go elsewhere oso lugi , back to square one ....Perhaps maybe next year from today onwards , 我已经不在这里了 ...........希望到时候我能如愿以偿 .......完成我想要的东西 ...............

Audit programme 看得七七八八了 .....是时候问我的好partner 问题了 ....:)

Weird Weird Day ~~~~~~~~~~~

2008-09-02T23:23:00.006+08:00

今天是一个很很奇怪的一天 ....................怎么会这样啊 ..................

一向来只会顶嘴的你今天怎么跟平时不一样 ?????? 真的搞不懂 ......................
嘴虽然还是在顶 , 不过呢你叫我留下来 surprises me .......Normally 要叫也是我叫你 ......

2nd surprise : Place you suggest to go is the place where i've been jioing . Just that we keep messing it up lol . Was surprised you suggested there . Thought you want curry after some debating hmmmm . Unfortunately , 上天在玩我们 ....Closed for the day ??? went with my other frend so many times and not a single time CLOSED ......... 你很unlucky .........:p

3rd surprise : 你不是没人约哦今晚 .....you do have places where people jio you ..... why you never go is beyond me ...........? Spend time with me ? lol . 甚至让我觉得 i'm suddenly a spare tire for the night lol .You said No but i do have my doubts .......毕竟这种situation is not the first time (horrrr 表姐 .....hahahahahhahahaha)

4th surprise : I thought someone wanna me to treat her because of promotion ....Why is it the other day round tonight ? You footed the bill hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm weird weird weird .

5th surprise : 让我看看你的好干嘛阿今天 ...........从来没看过这样的你 ............我真的是大吃一惊 ...........

6th surprise : 走这样的wet road 你还说 ok ...........是别的女生早就气死了 ............

7th surprise : 走到一半的时候 , 你的手链掉了 .....quite a fair bit fell apart .... i recovered most of them ....想帮你找完它 ....你却说不重要 .......看你有带着它 .......一定对你有意义 ..........怎么就这么爽快说不要 ??????

8th surprise : busy women with plenty of activities 的你 .....整天在office 看你哈哈大笑 ....竟说有一些人是 irritate 你的 ? Weird ........Aren't I one of your biggest pest ? lol

今天的你 ..............真的让我的心里对你有another side 的认识 .........................

今天的blog 特地为你而写 .......给足你面子了 ........ :p Luckily you don't read this , if not ..............plenty of 顶嘴 session I believe :p

Sick Sick Sick

2008-08-26T23:20:00.002+08:00

For the past few weeks , been down with a funny runny nose problem (got me sick for a few days , some days mc is because cannot wake up on time but other than that got Real Sick hmmmmm) I guess i must be very sensitive to something around me ....keeps getting the silly sense on and off . (Lack of exercise ? Trying to cover for that now that workload is lighter (off Peak :p) . Juggling between getting fit and working is tough (时间是人定的 , so that might be just an excuse after all :p) Anyway , feeling drowsy and sleepy now , don't feel like watching any movies at the moment so hmmmm blog here and waste some time better :p

Leave leave , come earlier . Lets clear some leave , relax , exercise , study hard and meet up with some frends which i haven seen in some time . hmmm , counting down from now .............. about 16 days ? lol 真希望快点来 ......Time to bring some materials to office to read now that its very slack :p

无聊的一天 ..............................................

奇怪的一天

2008-08-15T02:05:00.002+08:00

Sneezed all the way from morning till after work . 差点死掉 .....................

After lesson on the way home , someone actually told me i said an inspirational speech to her in the morning ....hmmm just what did i actually say ? hmmmmmmmmm

算了 , 有帮到人就好 ... All the best in the near future :)

Been A Long Time Since I Updated

2008-08-13T23:27:00.003+08:00

Maybe , today is a good time to update . Y ???? My First Full Year As A Working Adult ~~~~ Reason To Celebrate ? Reason To Be Happy ? I dunno 是好还是坏 ........但是 growing up as a person is a DEFO Yes . 剩下的 , sometimes yes , sometimes no ?

Lets Rewind to what has happened this past year i guess . First of all , trips to china . 让我渐渐看到世界的另一端 , 也同时忘了一年前的一些事情了吧 .....认识了更多人 (Which is not a bad thing after all , although at times there are people who realli irritate you big time, though it is the minority) . After all , 这也让我了解到这个industry 有多tough since i'm a new bird . 从一个什么都不知道的人到现在的我 , 倒是学了不少东西 .... 但是我还是希望我学得更多的东西 .... 直到我学到了某些东西 to a certain extent 的时候 , 我才会想走 ...For the moment , i don't think so ...... Promotion for me ???? Seriously , it comes as a big surprise to me ......... I mean i seriously felt that i should learn pretty more things before this happens , but since it happens , i guess i just have to learn along the way to cope with the higher salary and promotion . Obviously , i'm happy with the higher pay since most of the colleagues always felt underpaid :p I wanna learn n learn n learn ~~~~ COME On local jobs :p

人与人之间还真是有点奇怪 ...... getting along on the same wavelength is one thing . However , being shown attitude is another type of thing . 我最不爽人家先给我 attitude 看 , 所以不要以为你给我 attitude 看我就必须对你好 ....... You asked for the type of treatment you deserve depending on what you do in the first place . Motto On Friends has always been clear to me : 人家对你好 , I will do double , thriple , or even more . If the reverse happens , don't blame me if i ignore u . U simply deserve it .

知道你switch job soon , Congrats ~~~~ If the environment's not for you anymore , yes really its time to leave . I dun see the point in working in a place where it does not feel the same anymore . Anyway , REAL SORRY . 我竟然忘了你的生日 ............ 真是不好意思 ......... Memory's realli been failing me since there are a zillion and one things to do ....... SORRY ~

有时不是很明白 , 为什么有时无端端会对你发脾气呢 ????? 想了一下还是seriously dunno y ...hahaha 不要意思了 ...... 别问我为什么 ........ 你就比较奇怪 ...............我真的也不想这样..........

Finally , i started ACCA . But missed some lessons , so its realli realli high time to play catch up and copy my NOTESSSSSSSSSS . If i still want the 2/1/2 yr plan to be achieveable , high time i do something about it ......

Time to finally find the frends i made in china for a holiday ? Thinking about it ...whether to materialise or not is another thing .........

Not shown any of my pictures at all from china so far , i guess we gotta wait just a wee bit longer . :p

Oh ya , one more thing to blog about .... My NEW IDOL Michael Phelpsssssss My GODDDDD 5 Gold Medals ....Give me 3 more man ~~~~~~~ U are the olympic champion for sure NOW ~~~~~~~ 中国队加油also ~~~~~~ :p

I'll leave it here for the moment ..... thinking cap will be back soon ~~~~

P.s : I forgot about RESERVIST ....worth a talk i guess :p Weight has grown , however , shooting has become more and more sharp hahahahahaha MARKSMEN :p Thanks to the govt for the easy money , helps that my team mates were great shooters as well . WELL DONE . Thanks for the gathering again lol , been a long time since the gang were together again . Next one will be tough though , so lets buck up lol . Feels like a holiday when u're in camp though this time round lol , now i understand why reservist people are so happy back in camp . :)

很久没Blog了

2008-07-10T23:58:00.002+08:00

long time no blog . Welcome Mr Bloggy . hmmmm , finally i have decided to stay in this audit industry for a little while longer . Just took up ACCA and went for lessons already , gonna be a tough few years i believe in order to get a value added upgrade :p Good lucksssss .

Realised that office does have its politics after all . Better be careful in what u are doing at work , if not kena shoot oso dunno . No one to watch out for ya in manager's meeting oredi (Since Big Bro has gone :( take care BIG Bro )

Now for the part where i feel i better be careful in threading what i do ...............Gossips seriously can kill . Everyone knows it . 有时不是我要这样的。。。。。如果这种Gossips will create disharmony bewteen us , then i rather stay far away from you . 因为我不想看到最后因为某种结局而离开this company . 已经在传了是吗 ????? 看来也是我stay far away from 你的时候了 ............. You claimed you are not bothered by it , somehow or rather , i seriously felt you are bothered by what people says . No matter what u say to me , 我每次说东西都说中的 , 所以i'm standing by what i think this time as well .

可惜啊可惜。。。。 i'm seriously thinking if i should get you to attend lessons for me now ....................我不知道怎么办 , my thinking cap has seriously stopped once again for me for the first time in over a year ........................

Time for a blog

2008-05-10T16:56:00.002+08:00

好久没blog 了 ....now that i have time , lets do it :p

First of all , wanna blame my own luck first lol . 不见了电话。。。。。Very inconvenient . Causes all my contact and pictures to be gone . How i hated that ..... Now i'm gonna have a hard time retrieving everything back :(

Mc 多一点是好的。。。。你要快点好起来。。。你担心,我也担心。。。。。。应该没事的。。。。。。。。。

As with regards to you , hmmmmmmm , 不知道要怎么说才好。。。。。你的世界不会就这么结束的。。。。我会想办法让你看开点的。。。。。。Before you know it , everything will be just fine as before . :) 别担心。。。。。。

Leaving for another business trip soon , hmmmmm hopefully this will be an enjoyable trip although i smell gunpowder in the air ... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Time to upload pictures though finally lol . Next up will be it . :p

再一次回来

2008-04-28T20:24:00.002+08:00

Not blogging about any china trips this time round , perhaps just a little thought to share . Had this thought while i was in china , but can't blog it immediately .

人有时候应该懂很多比较好呢还是懂比较少会比较好呢 ?

懂很多的人。。。。往往会看到人世间不是这么简单的。。。。对人对事会很谨慎。。。

懂很少的人。。。。往往会很开心的生活着。。。。。当然也会觉得世界是完美的。。。。。。

我觉得呢还是有一点balance会比较好....不要懂得太多,也不要懂得太少.....这样就不会容易吃亏.......

不知道为什么会有这样的想法 , 你们觉得呢 ????

Just a thing to note though ......真的不知道你生病了。。。。。就算知道了,好像也忙不上什么忙。。。。。。是我没用吗 ???? 唯一能做的就是探望你吧。。。other than that , really dunno what can i do ................ Life is too fragile ....你本来还好好的。。。怎么忽然会病起来呢。。。。。sighhhhhhhhhh.............

As for 你呢 , 怎么会在这个时候不开心呢 ??? 看你在我回来的时候,心情好像好很多了.....不知道是不是在hide .... 在我面前不需要hide ......我会给你最大的support to see you through this .....这就是我能帮你这个好友 or colleague 所能做到的事...不会让你容易受到伤害.........

可能这就是我的nature ...感情丰富 .... 喜欢帮身边的人resolve problems .... 只要你们开心 , 我也会开心 ...... 就算当我自己真的有problem 而no one helps me out , 我也不会失望....Eventually , i will find a way to solve it . :)

寂寞了 , 也想好好找一个人来谈一段恋情 .......恋情在那里呢 ???? 可能我就是没有这个命吧。。。。。。。。。。

还是现在根本不是时候呢,总觉得如果现在不是时候,以后根本不会有可能吧。。。。。。

不知道。。。一切听从上天的安排。。。。。。

再一次的旅程

2008-04-02T21:34:00.003+08:00

Been travelling frequently lately , what else next ?

This time round , a trip to Indonesia , Batam . On April Fool's Day . Sounds like a joke eh :p

这个地方给我的感觉很像泰国(Thailand) , 不知道为什么。。。就是有这种感觉。。。

不错的地方,让人觉得很舒服。不过,还是有一点热。。。很久没做Boat了,感觉上还ok 。。。只要是可以睡的地方都 ok .

Upcoming trip next , 徐州 , China . 希望这次能给我时间好好的放下脚步 , 慢慢来。。。总觉得工作老是做不完。。。。。A lot to learn , but is this really the life of this job ? 辛苦的时候辛苦 , Relax 的时候会在那里呢 ???

先享受中国之旅再说吧 ..... Looking forward to another trip :)

Joke of the day , i was fooled by a april fool's joke . Wanted to mass send as well too , but it was not my idea anyway . So never realli did that lol :p

希望朋友,兄弟,小姐们都过得好,我们好久没联络了......那些让我感到失望的人,你们就别再打电话来了。。。我还是不会接的。。。。。。

P/S : Can we have other countries' clients as well ? I realli feel like travelling around the world :) Don't mind going to Japan , Korea , Europe . Should be fun :p

Continuation

2008-03-23T17:47:00.002+08:00

昨天只说了70% . 今天把它说完。。。。。

见人说人话,见鬼说鬼话。。。。这句话真的一点都没错。。。。。

你在的时候,没有人会这么说。。。。你一不在了,就准备给人家射arrow吧。。。。

这样的人还真虚伪。。有什么直接说就够了。。。不用躲在别人的背后说,super unprofessional 我觉得。。。。

隔墙有耳,说了就不要给我知道。。。。烦人 ? I admit 有一点,不过是有事请才会这样啊。。。不然,烦你干嘛？我没有更好的事情做吗 ???

看透了这些人了。。。Good experience learnt . 真的需要感谢你们。。。要不然,我根本不会学到......谢了。

期待下一次的经历。。。。

再来就是我的工作表现了。。。。我觉得i still got lots to learn . Time to get serious and learn as much as i can . 加油 . 不能再这样下去了。。。。。Afterall , there are lots to learn in this industry .

让一切从头开始吧。。。。。

我回来了 .............

2008-03-22T17:04:00.004+08:00

我终于回来了。。。。。应该高兴还是伤心呢??? 心中好多事想说出来。。。。。全是我的错吗？？？？

我记得上一次走的时候 , 是带着disappointment 走的。以为到了另一边会过得更好。。。。刚开始好像真的是这样。。。在一些地方让我看到的人反而让我改变我的看法。。。。原来。。。。。世界真的很现实。。。。这个trip , 真的让我这么觉得。。。早点让我看清这个世界是好的呢？还是不好的？我也不知道。。。。。。总之 , 心不要这么容易抛开给人家看 , i need to assess whether they are worth trusting . 人心真的好难fathom . 不知道什么时候是真,什么时候是假的。。。

On the brighter side , 认识了一些不错的人。。。。谢谢你们的照顾。。。尤其是姐姐你。。。。我会想你的。。。真的好舍不得走。。。但是没办法 , 有缘的时候一定会再见。。。我相信我们还会再见面的。。。期待下一次的见面了。。。。

回来了之后 , 这里的 disappointment 虽不见了(我原谅她了吗?) , 但是有新的Surprise 在等我。。。我不知道该笑还是哭。。。竟然被骗了。。。。原来那个人也不是什么好东西,说的东西有90%是骗人的。。证据拿不出来 , 我就不会相信你。。。就算你拿出来了,也没用。。。你撒的谎太多了,我真的看不出什么是真,什么是假。。。 you do things for your own purpose fine , 不要让我抓到。。。。simple as that . 如果人什么都不知道，he/she 会活得比较快乐一些。。。。。

回来了,怎么跟你说话感觉完全不同了呢,我发现我再也不会跟你有说有笑了。。。。跟你有一定的Gap 了。。。。。
就让它这样下去吧。。。毕竟, trust is not built overnight . It takes time to fully develop 信任。。。在这个时候 , 我什么人都不信。。。我只相信我的家人。。唯有他们是不会对你撒谎的。。。。

家永远是最好的。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

Bloggy :p

2008-02-15T13:55:00.004+08:00

First of all , sorry for not blogging for so longggggg :p . Been some time since i last blogged anyway . I haven't uploaded the pictures yet and I haven forgotten yet though . Soon soon bloggy , u'll get to see some nice pics .

Been travelling around China of late , this time round to 晋江 . Nice interesting place , however the wind is a bit windy though . :p

Back in Singapore for about a week or so already , kind of missed Singapore now :p However , going to go off again pretty soon . Time to pack up and go for war . :p

However , this is the main purpose of my blog and its stated below . If i don't get this out , i never will cool down i believe . Well , my hot bloody temper still exists after all . Not good i know , but it takes time to change i guess .

Here's goes my rant :

对人这么好有什么用呢 ? 我真的应该认真的看清个人的品格再对人好 . These 2 days , i just got pissed big time . 我还是那句话 : 忙就说忙 , 不用给脸色看 . 我最讨厌人家给我脸色看 . 我平时也对你很好，i don't deserve this do i ? Maybe , as time goes by , expectations will rise , but this is way too 离谱 . So what if u apologise now ? Its just too late . 知道错, right at the start 就不要这样 . 早知如今 , 何必当初呢 ? What just pisses me off is the fact u still can talk to other people laughing and laughing . Then 我说的话是什么 ? 放屁吗？早知道就不用这么关心你. 我也可以save a lot of time and 做比较有意义的事情。。。。。我发誓不会对你这么好了。。。你就自身自灭吧。。。。Not going to give a shit anymore .

Another one , this was classic :我不要浪费电话费跟你说了. Fine , by all means , don't call in the first place for god's sake . Another uncalled for event . I'm not saying its their fault entirely , but defo not totally my fault . I did nothing wrong hello ?

Tell me off with good reasonings please and not with attitude , tell me why should i give a friendly attitude in the first place ? People people just amazes me sometimes . I'm really surprised . I guess , its the 品性 that each individual possess and not where you are from .

我只会对那些真的对我好的人更好 , 其他的人 , 你们给我滚得远远的。。。。我不需要你们在我的生命里出现。。。。Life is fair after all .

I feel so fcuking sick now . I hate to use this word here , but realli fcuking sick :(:(:(:(:(

Christmas And New Year Wrap Up

2008-01-06T23:35:00.000+08:00

We wish you a merry christmas woot woot ,
We wish you a merry christmas .
We wish you a merry christmas anddddddddd
a Happy NEW Year .

Santa Claus is cominnggggggggggggggggggggg to Townnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn .

Since i have gained a little bit of weight , wonder how i would look like if i'm in Santa's costume ? lol , Should be comical i guess :p

Right back on course for christmas though , met up with a few of my friends , but not everyone :p Hmmmm , got plenty of catching up to do with all . Got time then we meet up ok ? Hopefully , we'll have time to do that . If really no time then too bad . 我只能说不好意思了 . Anyway , 朋友有时候也不需要常常见面 . 有时候来一个 SMS 或 msn 也可以搞定的 ..... Hmmmm , surprised i never said QQ :p I must be thinking about China again omg :p QQ is a chat message system which is similar to Msn . Just that only China people uses it . Fortunately or Unfortunately (Not too sure which is which though ) , we don't use them :p

对了 , 谢谢你的Christmas cum Birthday Present :p 我会让你A回的 :p

Went to 店小二 with my friend and his girlfriend . Hmmmmm , 我又做电灯炮了 ..... :p 没办法，谁叫我没有另一半 ? :p Anyway , you called me along one , so too bad hahaha :p Avoided the major areas for the Jam though , i guess thats considered quite good :p I hate squeezing with the crowds :p

As for New year , went to marina bay for Steamboat . I saw on someone's msn that the Marina Bay steamboat was closing . And what better time to visit it . 31 Dec was the last 2nd night :p I know we waited for some time before an empty seat appears , guess i have not eaten steamboat for a super long time . So the wait is worth it :p
Deliberately dragged our steamboat eating hours to nearly 11.45pm so that we can watch the fireworks on Show :p This year fireworks seems to be very beautiful and more variety . Did taxpayers pay too much taxes last year in 2007 ? I'm not sure why but that thought instantly came to my mind lol :p

Happy New Year to all anyway :p

2007 has past . It brought a lot of memories to me . Both Happy and sad ones as well . 有过了一年了 , 我只能希望明年回过得比今年好 , 这样就足够了 .......记住该记住的 , 忘记该忘记的 . 让一切都重头开始吧 .....

I do have some resolutions this year though , perhaps listing it here might help ? Anyway here goes :

P.s : Not in order of importance though :p

1) I want a Digi Camera
2) I want to upgrade my Phone
3) I want a new cupboard for my wardrobe
4) I want a PSP
5) I want a Nintendo Wiiii
6) I want a PS3
7) I want to earn lots of money and save lots of it (This point is really of importance!!!!!!!)
8) I need to 戒掉 one very important bad habit . I'll need as much help as possible . (This is also of importance !!!!!!!
9) I want a Motor License and Driving License
10) I want to excel in work . Whether to stay on or not is another thingy all together :p
11) I want a cupboard to put up all the souveniors i bought from China and other trips that i may go to in future :p
12) Other than all types of sporting activities , i want to pick up more interests .
13) I want to lose weight :p This one not really of importance , just that i wanted to do so . China Trips does make u fat :p
14) I want every person whom i know to have Good Health (This is VEry Very Important!!!!!!)
15) I want more time please . 24 hours a day doesn't seem enough :p

Guess , that is all for now :p

Another China Trip ？

2007-12-25T10:49:00.000+08:00

Well , coming back from china already , gotta adapt to our typical Singapore weather . How tough can that get ? Sweating every single day while going to work :p

Received another China Assignment though , so time for me to go to China again for a 2nd business trip :p This time round , the destination ? 西安 .

Took the morning flight from Singapore , that means we gotta wake up at early hours of the morning . 谢谢你 , 辛苦你了 . Sacrifise your sleeping time and wake me up , 让我好感动 hahahahaha :p Seriously , not many people can do that , so once again thanks :) Confirm get some souvenior back for u to repay u for your efforts :p

Own SG girls to take care of our needs once again while we sit on the plane lol :p Dunno y though , i find travelling so interesting , however my roommate keeps saying why so happy ? Travelling overseas u know ? Hmmm , perhaps , i just like travelling a lot , so no matter where i go , as long as its a new place , i'm interested in what the trip brings .

Took the flight to 上海 and have to wait for the transit to 西安 . Shanghai airport surroundings looks cold though hmmmm , nothing much to explore :p Except for this : The one and only magnetic train ? Looks interesting , but we didn't had the time to take it . Thats a pity :p

Onto the trip to 西安 then . This place was much bigger than the first one which i went to . Weather seems much colder as well , can take the cold weather but only for a certain period of time :p Realised that as the weather gets colder , u tend to eat more hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm :p

Spent my birthday down there as well , first time spending birthday abroad though . Happy Birthday to me x4 !!!!!!!! :p What more to ask for when you have bosses celebrating it for you ? 好感人 , nearly drop a few drops of 感动的眼泪 out :p 谢谢大家了 . 小弟我心领了。。。。。。。

Never went to 兵马俑 at all though , no time :(:(:(:(:(:( However , we only went to 黄帝陵 . Guess the only thing worth looking at over there is the old trees hmmmm . When i mean old i mean they are a few thousand years old :p

2 weeks seems to pass by quickly and i'm once again back in Singapore again . Ready to celebrate Christmas and the New year i guess :p

Pictures of all the China Trips would be uploaded soon . Stay Tuned :p

Continuation Of China Trip (Wrap up of Shandong)

2007-12-25T10:16:00.000+08:00

Just realised i haven got the time to do it of late , anyway lets finish up the first china trip for today's blog first . :p

Week 2
Highlight of the week would be the trip to 泰山, one of the famous place you should visit if you are in shandong area . First time climbing mountain , interesting experience :p We took off very early , around 8am . Driving takes about 2 hours from our place . So Basically , we started our mountain climbing experience at 10+ am . The plan was to reach the hilltop before we took the cable car down before 6pm .

Its about 1580m tall if i remembered properly , and there's a stretch where there's no end like nobody's business :p For those who feels you have good determination , this is the mountain to try :p It sure trains up your determination 100% :D

Lunch was great , the noodles was superb , yum yum yum :p

Took plenty of pictures and had fun as well hahaha :p 曾经说过不会跟人走得很close , 怎么才说没多久这句话就无效了呢？ hahaha :p 真是的 . Anyway , thanks , your presence is much needed :) 谢谢你 .

你的determination , 竟然让我想忙你 and reach the hilltop together . Unfortunately , due to time constratints , we did not reach the top :p Anyway , tried hard already old woman . Nice effort :p Although you claim not to climb anymore next time round , i believe given the chance , u'll do it again hahaha :p Dunno why , but i feel you would do that hahaha :p

Week 3
This time round , highlight belongs to karaoke session . The sound systems here in China sure look much much different . And More Power ! Much much better than what we have to offer in Singapore :p Obviously , mouth itchy already , can sing better grab the mike and sing :p hahaha :p Special thanks to our client for this trip :)

Week 4
Finally , we are about to go back home . But before that , one last trip to 曲阜 qu(1st) fu (1st) . This is another place where its one of the famous spot in shandong . This place is the house of 孔子 . Everyone who lives down there obviously has to have the surname 孔 . Interesting eh ? There's 3 parts in all , 孔府 , 孔庙 , 孔陵 . Visited all the 3 though , took plenty of pictures as well :p Good area for sight seeing :p

Finally , we are set to go home now , took the domestic flight from 济南 to 北京 and finally SIA girls to serve you again from 北京 to Singapore :p :p :p :p

Nice business Trip eh , i wish all the business trip were like that :p

Week 1 of China

2007-10-31T09:16:00.001+08:00

Thanks for the farewell on the KTV session . From Chinese songs , 我们 raised the tempo and went to English songs :p Retro eh , even dug out the old old songs :p 谢谢你们的一路顺风歌。我心领了。

This whole month would be words blogging onli , there are restrictions on the sites I can visit and hence , pictures would only be uploaded once I’m back . :p

This is my first business trip after all :p Would be some good exposure after all . Took the midnight flight though to Beijing , hmmm , SQ still the best . Good food , got our own SG girls to take care of your needs as well :p Life is great eh :p

Onto the land of the Chinese , Finally I’m in China yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah :p Air con weather awaits haha :p When we first landed , pilot says the weather is about 7 degrees . Oh the my the goodness :p Is it going to be freezing cold ? Transit from Beijing to where I needed to be is about 7 hours (inclusive of 1 hour lunch) . Saw the road to Shanghai as we travelled , if we had went to Shanghai , how fun would it get ? :p

Finally , we reached . Currently residing in Shan Dong . For people who are unsure , this Shan Dong is not the chinese word for “cave” . Its pronounced as Shan(1st Sound) Dong(1st Sound) . Shan Dong is broken up into a few places as well , and I am currently in one of them . The area I am in is called Ji Ning or 济宁 in Chinese .

Onto the food here , people were actually saying we might not get used to the food here , but fortunately , I can get used to it :p Client treats us very very well . About 10 dishes per meal everyday . 10 course here , 10 course there . Going to come back being fatter omg :p Having beer for lunch , dinner everyday as well . Going to have beer belly when I come back as well lol :p Lodging wise , normal 3 star hotel ? A place where its good enough for us to sleep in . That’s what we really need isn’t it after a hard day’s of work .

Weather wise , this week is still pretty bearable , hmmmm air con weather ? Slightly below that though . There is only a day where there’s a fog and visibility is pretty low . Hmmmm , so that’s how a fog looks like eh :p Well , very cold weather coming next week . Which means to say , be prepared for trouble :p

A lot of places for shopping though , a lot of weird brands out there as well . Prices does vary from shopping malls to shopping malls , the branded ones are obviously more expensive . Its in RMB but still if you convert it back to SGD , it doesn’t really look cheap :p Besides , I’m not really a brand chaser . What matters most in clothings is the quality and comfort . Does Brand really matters ? Hmmm , something worth pondering .

Saw my favourite things down there as well , but they dun sell in twos : ( . Things are pretty cheap down here though , hopefully I can find some bargains or 2 though :p Bought some things to bring home already , but I believe I can find more :p More shopping trips please :p

Language wise , the people here does talk in their native language , so its kind of difficult to understand what they are saying , fortunately but they can understand our 普通话 , which is the Chinese language that we used :p

Explored a fair bit of places already but I shan’t go into details of that :p

Lets talk about something else .

Been pondering over this question for a long time coming . Does people actually do things with a purpose ?

If we do things with a purpose , doesn’t it make us scheming persons ?

It is weird to say we don’t do things with a purpose . Sometimes , it is dependent on whether the intention is kind or evil . But no matter what we do , our aim is to achieve an objective isn’t it ? If so , it means to say whatever things we do , we have a purpose for it . That in turn would say that we are scheming isn’t it ?

That means to say , doing things with your heart is rubbish ? Cause ultimately , you are still going to do it with a purpose in mind .

So far So good , its been an enjoyable trip . I’ll post up another entry during the 2nd week :p

加油加油。你一定做得到的。忘了他就是放过你自己。Time to move on and there’ll be someone whom will really treasure and respect you in time to come . We talked about it , you know you have to be selective in what you really want in the near future :p

在每一个人的生活当中，一定会有以个人一直在等着你。只是时间未到，没机会给你碰上才，耐心地等待吧。How true is this phrase ? Guess only time will tell :p

Blogging mmmmmmmmm

2007-10-20T11:20:00.000+08:00

Met up with my lecturer ms Koh on thursday night :p 好久不见了，thanks for sparing the time haha :p Instead of going home to babysit your kids , we spent the night at prata shop talking n talking until we exceeded the time haha :p Oh ya , thanks for the ride too :p Sitting at the back while you drive is front is like i'm the big big boss like that haha :p

我又回去了。没想到再一次看着那些快乐的地方时，nearly dropped a tear or two out . Not sure why i felt like that though . I only visited one place , i know that if i visited more and more places , i'll surely drop more than one tear or two . And there are still students around the area , not too good isn't it ? Must learn to be brave and not do that . 既然要放手就不要再看了，要不然我真的会放不下的。

Saw miracles after miracles yesterday though , thanks for the eating session :p We've been touring around the same area over and over again :p Ah ger , sorry , 我差一点就把东西给弄不见了。Backtracked to the places where we went and eventually found it , despite the many problems which occured such as last train gone , last bus almost gone . 就算真的找不到，我也put in my effort to frantically search for it . 可能，那样东西根本都不属于我的。That was miracle number 1 , seriously didn't expect to retrieve it back . Miracle number 2 was even more surprising , last bus timing had past by 10 mins , yet i still saw the last bus . Hmmmmm , life does have miracles happening after all :p

这就是人生，miracle 1 depicts clearly how i feel . Persistence would only get you somewhere in life , and its not applicable in all sorts of areas . 可能有一天会找回来的，nobody knows . Only time and the gods above will know . Lines which once cut into each other's lifes would slowly branch out and become parallel from now onwards , whether its for life or just 短暂的。Time to move on with life i guess , 这次真的走了。

Philosopher , 我做到了。It was done with a tinge of sadness , but eventually did it . 我真的 move on 了。

Thanks for all the wonderful memories you brought to me , 我会记得的。有一天如果还有缘分的话，perhaps another form of miracle will happen . 再见了。

Looking forward to my China Trip . I believe i have lots to write then . Next entry would probably be from China :p

Pictures

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Bar Top

Bar Top

Food At Ichiban Restaurant :p

Food again At Ichiban Restaurant :p

Food Again At Ichiban Restaurant :p

Mess Again :p

Spooky :p

Mess At work

Soup Restaurant Chicken :p

Blogging Time :)

2007-10-18T00:12:00.000+08:00

很久没有blog 了 . Its been about 2 months since I have worked in this firm , workload seems to be getting heavier and heavier . Don’t seem to have time for anything else during the weekdays . That's bad eh ? Nvm , hopefully I can find some spare time out for some relaxation and fun :p Finally , I'm done with the 2nd job :p 心中的包袱好像忽然之间放下来了。Mission accomplished at last :D Nice place , nice area . Free lunch somemore . Nice working with you people there . 待在那里久了，自然而然会对那里产生一些依依不舍的感觉吧。人生就是这样，things come and go . 能留住的就努力，不能留住的就让它走吧。

谢了，没想到整天在office跟我顶嘴的人会下来救我。I owe you one . Perhaps our 8 characters really clash after all , either your mouth smelly or my mouth smelly at times hahahaha :p This is what makes work interesting isn't it ? Not everyday you get to pick on someone while she shoots back at you too haha :p

Soup restaurant was nice though , I only took a pic with me only :p The rest are in another colleague’s phone though . Would upload it if I get the chance to get the pictures from him . Bring Ah ger and eeeek go when I’m back :p

Lazy to upload now . Do it over the weekend :p

Good luck Shan jie :p Although 你还比我小，your rank bigger haha :p I wish you lucks in your new firm :p Had some fun with you during our audit work haha :p 加油加油加油 .

Been doing sales of late as well , I seem to lack the responsibility level to take it on . Maybe I have given thousand and one reasons to take it on , but I really find it difficult at the very moment to do it . Transition from school to work is just too tough for me to take at the moment . I don’t want to force myself to go to the stage where I go bonkers . Audit and sales when combined together is no joke . IAlthough I really want to break the financial gap as soon as possible , but there is no other way than to slowly progress isn’t it ? However , sales should offer you the fastest way to get it . 人必须一步一步往上爬的吧。Guess my worry is unfounded .

I know u recommended me this out of goodwill . To be honest , I’ve been a disappointment so far . Give me some more time . I would try hard to make it a success . Hopefully , that time will come soon . We both see the long term future to that type of sales , hopefully I will catch up with you real soon .

Back to my job , is it normal for me to think whether I should stay on in this line at the moment ? CPA or CFA ? I guess I only got energy to take one 吧. Not possible to go for two . Seems to have lost my focus in what I really want though .

跟你聊了之后 ,is it really normal to think that sometimes its like that ? I really dunno . I Know for sure that I won't get an answer for now . 见机行事吧。

Feeling so stressed and tired man , let me go to China . Perhaps going there at this point in time is best for me after all . This is how I feel at the very least . Should have went off this week but due to some complications , seems like its delayed . Hopefully , I’ll be off soon . 至少让我 mentally , physically , emotionally 都有一个地方靠 . 我不想再留在这里as of now , so hurry up and 让我走吧。至少在另一个地方，接触不同的人不同的事会比较好吧。

Met up with my close kakis to celebrate my depature though , paisei man . Really thought I going off liao haha :p Bar Top was nice , didn’t know this place existed . Nice chill out place . Act high class somemore eh , drink white wine hahahaha :p

Again , i'm lazy to upload . Do it over the weekend :p

我知错了，原来我还是这么不懂事。Sigh . Give me some more time , I'll need a change for the better to achieve what I really want in future .

Long time no chat with my fellow philosopher :p You really given me food for thought on what you said to me yesterday night . If only I can be as strong as you , I believe I will lead a much better life than what I am right now . 我做得到的，时间会帮我的。I truly believe that one fine day , 我们一定会得到一个解脱的。When I can finally do what you did , I know that I have already moved on and 永远不再回头。

I can never be as brave as you in the sense that you actually did that . Hopefully i can really do it . We shall know the outcome after i come back from China .

Lyrics for a start

2007-10-17T23:09:00.000+08:00

无能为力 - 张敬轩

醒了我却还是闭着眼睛
只有这样才能留住梦境
还看见我最爱的眼睛
还有你偷偷亲吻我的情景
醒了我都不会挣开眼睛
是怕泪水慢慢吞噬心情
原以为我们有了约定
就能够听见朋友祝福的声音
还来不及和你和你在一起
数着天空里坠落的星星
你已经离我而去爱没有继续
原来我根本不是你的唯一
我紧闭双眼摒住呼吸
根本就不敢在夜里想你
谁知道在白天遇见了你
看见你新的唯一靠在你怀里
我留给眼泪不能呼吸
我无法面对最后这个结局
曾经我们有过无数话题
爱到最后我们对爱竟会无能为力

醒了我都不会挣开眼睛
是怕泪水慢慢吞噬心情
原以为我们有了约定
就能够听见朋友祝福的声音
还来不及和你和你在一起

记住属于你的一点一滴
你已经离我而去爱没有继续
原来我根本不是你的唯一
我紧闭双眼摒住呼吸
根本就不敢在夜里想你
谁知道在白天遇见了你
看见你新的唯一靠在你怀里
我留给眼泪不能呼吸
我无法面对最后这个结局
谁会想到曾经相爱的人
还没到最后我们对爱已经无能为力

Last Post Of the night

2007-10-05T01:45:00.001+08:00

Saw some interesting thoughts on blogs off late . Thought i'll do a cut and paste instead .

First one .

Happiness lies in your heart. when you feel happy, you will have happiness.

No one can take your happiness away. only you yourself can.

Do not allow anyone to "shake" the happiness in your heart. only you have control over it.

If you ever have to experience darkness, always remember that the moonlight will be there to guide you.. that somewhere there will always be someone who dreams of ur smile and finds in ur presence that life is worthwhile. so when you are lonely, remember that someone somewhere is thinking of u..

Not sure about this haha :p

2nd One

Boy facts:

"When a guy says he misses u.."
Message: When a guy calls u he wants to be with you

When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong

When a guy says, "I'm fine," after a few minutes,
he means it.

When a guy stares at you,
he thinks you're the most beautiful thing in the world.

When you're laying your head on a guy's chest,
he has the world.

When a guy calls you everyday,
he is in love!

When a (good) guy say he loves you,
he means it.

When a guy says he can't live without you,
he's with you till your done.

When a guy says, "I miss you,"
he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else

True ~ :p

Girl facts:

When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her mind.

When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds,
she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are so wonderful.

When a girl lays on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl calls you everyday,
she is seeking for your attention.

When a girl wants to see you everyday,
she wants to be pampered.

When a girl says, "I'll love you forever,"
she means it.

When a girl says that she can't live without you,
she has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you more than that!

My feminine nature cannot decipher this so i'm not sure hahahaha :p

Last one

The 4 things a person can never recover once lost.

The stone after the throw.
The word after it is said
The occasion after the loss
The time after it is gone.

Always cherish wat you have now. Dun complain abt things you don't have.
You will only have regret once those things are lost.

Well said :)

Hmmm , to sum it up , money is not enough . Been thinking of how to earn more money of late . Surely , there must be a way somehow . Its up for me to know and for the rest to find out . Seriously hope that i find a gold mine soon . :p

Picture Time 3

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Hope everyone likes what i've taken so far . More updates next time . Food updates coming back in my next blog session .

Picture Time 2

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Pictures Time (1)

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Get Ready . Plenty of them coming your way . :p

During Training ~~~~~~~~

Hair Cutting Session :p Cum Highlight :p

Life Of Late

2007-10-03T23:29:00.000+08:00

Been a long time since i last blogged , i'll try and blog something out i guess today .

What have i been busy of late ?

Working until 11pm at night . That's some challenge for a start . Never expected me to be so hardworking as well :p

Knowing more and more things in work , trying to learn as much as possible . Many many things i wanted to do , but the energy level is just not there . Work sure takes up a lot of my time i guess . 跟不同的人工作， must adapt to the different styles also . 这样工作才会快乐。Learning stage is always the toughest , so i must work extra hard . I know the pay is not exactly a lot , but with experience , the pay will shoot up . 所以我要加油。Sidelines can be considered , but i sure need to work on my main job at hand . For now , i just wanna strive something out of my working career as soon as possible . 谁不想get financial freedom ? 我真得很想，所以 i need to work towards it .

Visited Sim for lunch this week , 再一次回到那里了。Working attire and normal school attire is so different . 但是发现了一样东西。虽然东西还是原地不动，感觉上似乎不同了。为什么呢？

Been learning cantonese as well , everyone speaks cantonese omg :p I'll catch the language soon enough :p

Finally , i realised one thing . 做什么都好，千万不要让人家误会，要不让会一发不可收拾的。对不起，我也有错。I take responsibility for my own actions 。我真得很希望不会再看到同一个情景。真正了解我的人是知道的，我绝不是这种人。You really scared the shit out of me For once , i really thought i would lose a frend for good . 一个我认识这么久的兄弟。I value my frendships , each and every single ones . 多一个朋友就是少一个敌人。爱的力量虽然很大，但是要know what you are doing 。Anyway , forget it . Since everything is back to normal , hopefully that is the case ba :p

你去韩国了。祝你一路顺风。我会想你的 :p go there chop chop come back quickly :p

Already set a date to stop everything . If that date arrives and nothing happens , 我就pack my bags and leave . 再也不回头。

Looking through my past entries

2007-09-24T02:38:00.000+08:00

The heat within me is cooled . But I realise one important thing of me : I am immature at times . I'll be the first to admit that sometimes , i wrote things in the heat of the moment , it really makes me look so silly . Its never the end of the world when things do not happen the way you want it to be , come on for god's sake , GET A LIFE .

To all the people i really wanted to show care and concern for , i'm very sorry if i am rude to anyone in the blog which i have posted . I'm never ever going to think so much anymore . Let me just take things as they come . Showed some attitude again :(

Having said that , lets move on to the upcoming week . :p

Wrap Up For the week

2007-09-24T01:19:00.000+08:00

Friday
Was feeling breathless after work , senior was asking me to read through some materials for next week's audit job . I did but realised a schedule was missing . So i thought i have to retype the whole thing . I already informed Senior that i have to retype most of that particular schedule as i could not find it , well , guess she didn't really catch what i was saying . In the end , she offered me a solution . Ask the It personnel to extract other year's stuffs out . However , risk attached . If they could not get anything on mon , i gotta stay back everyday until 9 i believe just to finish it . So , i pray hard that i could get something later today during work .

Anyway , went to visit grandma in hospital . Seeing her like that pains me as well . 毕竟你是把我养大的人。在我能力有限的范围里面，我也想好好的报答你。I have a feeling that your life is coming to an end soon though (Don't ask me why i said that . I'm not cursing anyone) , so please fight hard to live on . 就算是给我一个机会，好好孝顺你。

was feeling unusually tired though , so went home to sleep :p

Saturday
Had plans for the day for soccer , but eventually cancelled . Spent the night at book stores looking for books (i'm not an avid reader of books , but i needed to find some books to plan for what to do for the upcoming weeks and months )

Watched some footie and fell asleep . Boring Saturday :p

Sunday
Thanks for the mahjong session . 好久没打了。手还真是有一点痒。 :p And yeah , time to switch the gears around . If short passing does not work , we need to play a direct style of football . Switching of gears is important , lets see where we are heading towards anyway .

Ok , end of weekend wrap up .

To fulfill my motto as above , i have been trying to find of things to do of late after work . The current work does not make me feel entirely breathless , i feel i do have a certain level of energy still . So lets make use of it and do whatever needs to be done . Mr bloggy , here's my checklist .

I'll update my checklist as and when i'm done with it . :)

1)Finding good food

Well , surprised isn't it ? I think i'm a mountain tortoise in this area . Having good food around should make one feel more relaxed after work . Improves your mood as well . :p Makansutra edition 6 should help . Since my job requires me to travel around , this book is useful . Wherever i am , i will be able to find good food . So , high time to start exploring Singapore . Do it while you're young still . This may sound crazy but there would be times where i would use bicycles to source for these foods . This will keep me occupied for some time :) I don't care , i'm ready to go for this expedition . Interested parties , let me know . You are welcome to join me for a nice trip :p Reason why i did this is because as a Singaporean for so many years , we should be expected to know . Dunno a bit sia sway sia :p

2)Exploring Of Night Spots
Singapore is a place which is filled with night spots . How many areas do i exactly know ? Not much i believe . Its always good to find some nice cosy areas for a good chill or drinks and chatting happily with friends and stuffs . Being equipped with the knowledge on where to bring friends around is interesting as well . So , high time to look on the internet for these areas and explore it :p This would also take away some time for me to be occupied :p

3)Jigsaw puzzles
I have always like to play with jigsaw puzzles , just that it needs time and effort to do it . I have one in my room currently , but have not played with it . Let me finish that and i'll continue to source for other nice ones . Payday coming , so i should be able to get some nice puzzles and make it value for money :)

4)Room Decor
I find that my house decor sucks , its high time i do something and make my house beautiful . Living in a cosy area beats looking at the boring 4 corners of the wall at home . Life should always be surrounded upon things which are bright . This will cheer up your days during the week as well :) Again , payday coming , can invest or read up on something that could alter the outlook of my house :p

5)Cooking and having a cook book
This requires time and effort to learn as well . However , its a good habit to cultivate eh . The ability to whip up something out of nothing is a great thing to have . It makes you seem like a magician :p

6)Internet Banking
Just applied for internet banking of late . The pin codes are in . I'll need to activate them and start to transfer some cash onto my E-savers account . This would be the place where reserves of cash can be stored . High time to plan for my future . 现在做工了，不能再靠老妈了。I must work and save hard to achieve what i want . :)

7)My "homework"
I haven done it yet , but i'll settle this and pointer 6 right after i finish this blog :p Tonight will be a long night after all haha :p I must sumbit my homework later , so i'll try and find something out :p

8)Driving License
Hmmm , haven had the time to browse through them but at least these are the 3 websites that i needed to get me started :p

http://www.bbdc.sg/bbdc/xl/XL200_lite/home.asp

http://www.ssdcl.com.sg/

http://www2.comfortdrivingcentre.com.sg/main.asp

人生本来就是要有目标。所以加油吧。:p

想通了

2007-09-21T07:40:00.000+08:00

After a night of sitting down , doing nothing , and just see through things , guess i got the answer i wanted .

Sometimes , i do admit my mind is too sensitive and imaginative haha :p Confirm gurantee plus chop too lor soh :p I'm sure people who knows me to a fair degree would say that . :p Not that i wanted to though , i really need to open my brain sometimes and see what it is made of :p

Nice anaology in what you have written . I fully agree with what you are saying .

我会开心吗？This is something i gotta answer myself . 所以，just go ahead with whatever i am doing and Do not ever ever regret . Doing things with agenda is not the real me , so why should i ever change that fact ?

心胸当然要放大一点 , stop whining consistently and make a stand . I should really learn to make a stand and not being so wishy-washy at times . There can be a million and one people telling you what they think , what they feel . Ultimately , the decision lies in you . So decision maker , please wise up and choose the next path to walk . :p Stick with a direction and go with it , 一条会让你开心的路才值得你走下去。

As for things which do not go your way , take it with a pinch of salt . No one is forced to do anything . Just let it be :p Never ever force yourself to do things as well . You are going to be definitely cursing and swearing if that happens . Because , you will be expecting something in return . 对人对事，只要发自内心对待一切，
没有人不会不明白的。There's always the special element in each and every single one of us in this world here , its whether did anyone really discover it at all . Simple as that .

Perhaps , this is the stage where you will shape up to be a fully grown up . I'm glad i sat down and thought about it . I　said before , there are things i want to bring with me before (cannot remember which entry already though :p) . 只要开心，带不带走很重要吗？该来的终究会来的。I'm still the same old me , even if i want to change , i want a change for the better :p

Conclusion ? You make your own wise discretion and see then . Comments will all be deleted . So don't bother to make a comment . Sms me yourself and say also can :p All right , i'm done with it . Time to change up and get to work . Btw , i'm late again hahahahahaha :p

A song to share and some thoughts

2007-09-20T05:58:00.000+08:00

《如果你也听说》

我发现站了好久不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我再多人陪只会更寂寞
许多话题关于我就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可委屈却没有人诉说
夜半信仰丛白剥落拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候想你更多

如果你也听说有没有想过我
想普通交朋友还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说会不会相信我
对流言会附和还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我胸口依然温柔

许多话题关于我就连我也有听过
我想我宁可都沉默其实反而显得做作
夜半信仰丛白剥落拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候想你更多

如果你也听说有没有想过我
想普通交朋友还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和舍不得要无可奈何

如果你也听说会不会相信我
对流言会附和还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我胸口依然温柔

如果你也听说有没有想过我
想普通交朋友还是你依然会心疼我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我胸口依然温柔
如果你想起我你会想到什么

Got things to do at work of late , so stayed in office until pretty late :p Transition from study till work is after all very different . I miss school nowadays ~~~~~~~~~ . The times you can choose which lessons to go to and which lessons to crash gives you so much freedom . Don't like the day's lessons ? Skip and go on another day :p How can you do that to work though ? Think thats the ultimate difference isn't it ?

好想再回到那里看一看，毕竟那里还是一个特别的地方。特别的人，特别的事，特别的感觉。原来一个人越想忘记某些事，越是困难。Bury myself in work is the best thing to do ? 但是，这又好像在hide away from reality 不是吗？

Seriously , I honestly tried . But 你的脑海 just keeps coming back . 明明知道最后还是没有结果的，但是心里总是不想放弃。这又能怪谁呢 ? Maintaining no contact could be better after all 不是吗 ? 可能随着时间的流逝，你可能真的会从我的脑海里慢慢地消失掉。I really doubt so though . Maybe 把你藏在心里最深的地方或许是最好的吧，至少所有的回忆都在。我也不知道，时间会说明一切吧。让你走是不是最好的路呢？勉强挽留真的会有结果吗？

好兄弟增对我说过，让你走，我一定会后悔。我想我可能真的会后悔。

我曾说过，我会一直watch over you , 我能watch over 的，可能就是这么多吧。有问题的时候，我一定会再为你挺生而出。Until then , 在一边静静的看着，可能是最好的吧。既然根本忘不了你，就不要勉强的忘记，要不然会有 internal bleeding 的。把你留在脑海里可能是最好的吧。

知道学校有reply 你，不知何故，我完全没问你怎么样？应该是过的吧？

出国？也好。Come back refreshed 吧。Have fun with your trip :p

原来， there won't be a waste of my fc*king time if i don't think that way , every little time that is invested in whatever i do , whether it bears fruits or not , should be done at your own discretion . 这样， no matter what kind of response you get , life still goes on . No need to be too bothered by what is being said or done . 人生就是要活得开心， believe in your heart and trust in it . I'll go far in life if i carry on this mentality i guess ?

想说的应该就是这么多吧。I said before , i'm not going to write any thoughts , but if a blog doesn't have any thoughts in it , doesn't make sense . Happy things can still be written , so are my thoughts . This is my space after all :p

I need my cycling trip , 走来走去让心情平静下来吧。Only when 心平静下来的时候，the usual composed me will come out . 到时候，可能我才会知道怎么做吧。

真是的， i can't believe i actually wrote this early in the morning . Must be i haven wake up :p Anyway , lets look forward to the day ahead . Gonna be a busy day again i guess :p

I'll leave a joke here then .

汤圆的妈妈是谁？　

Answers anyone ?

花。 Why ????

Because 花生汤圆。:p

Next , 汤圆的爸爸是谁　？

Answer : William Farquar .

Why ??? 因为William fcuk 花。

Enjoy ~

Weekend Wrap Up

2007-09-16T19:39:00.000+08:00

Friday
Finally found some stuffs to do at work :p I'm beginning to understand more stuffs at work . Signing of timesheets are troublesome :p which means to say by the next time i come back to office , i better go around finding people to charge for my time :p Same tricks cannot be used twice anyway :p Anyway , new audit job next week , so that means another time to go out and have fun :p Good to see that i still have interest in this job so far haha :p

Was planning on where to go for the night , finally ended up watching 881 at west mall :p hmmm , was planning to watch ratatouli , but cannot find any kakis :p Nvm , movies are cheaper on weekdays i'll do it alone next week :p 好兄弟，谢了。这么远我都下来了，你还跟我迟到。:p Hmmmm , no nightriders here man , we better find other places to watch movies in future . 很久没看电影了，gotta get used to watching alone nowadays since everyone is busy and working oso :p Unless i find some kakis at work Or Ah Girl 你要陪我看。 But you are busy of late , so its hard also :p

原来，my knowledge of internet is limited . Didn't know i can do more things with it haha , i'll go and learn more usages of it in the coming months :p

Review of 881 : If you know hokkien , this is a recommended show for hokkien supporters . If you are too bored and feeling nothing to do , the hokkien jokes inside will make you more awake :p It sure woke me up haha :p

Saturday
Hmmm , rainy morning . Not a good start to the day . Had soccer in the afternoon , hmmm field soccer , but the boots and shoes lent to me were spoilt . So slippery , how to play man ? Conceded 6 goals though , most of the goals were silly . 6 years never play field liao , not dominating enough in between the posts , nvm practise makes perfect . I'll have a better game next time round .

Dinner at some restaurant . hmmm some claypot restaurant at siglap :p Thanks for the dinner treat by your mother :p The Bill is not cheap , not so good for your mother to pay for it oso . Anyway , thanks zheng yu , treat it that i owe you a favour 吧。

Watched the liverpool game at your house anyway , your house is filled with supporters of 2 clans haha :p Newcastle and liverpool :p I hope to wipe that smug off your face when these 2 teams clash off hahaha :p The reds will never walk alone :) So what if you have an on-form owen , on form heskey just limped off yesterday haha :p Be careful on monday :p

Refrees nowadays are a funny lot . Anyhow give penalties for no reason against liverpool ? Ban all the refrees man . I'm talking from an objective point of view , and not from liverpool's point of view :)

Thanks Gary for the trip home afterwards , actually i got my "Mercedez Benz" with me , going home is not a problem as a matter of fact . Thanks for your friendly gesture then :p

Had a long chat with you afterwards at my house downstairs , i really hope you do well in that business of yours now . I'm sure you would want to continue the heroics of what your grandfather did before :p All the best man . I always believe that , when someone really puts his heart in doing something , he/she will eventually succeed . I am very sure you do as well . Anything you need help , let me know . I'll be willing to lend a helping hand to help this business expand :)

Sunday
hmmm , slacked the whole day . Had plans to venture around singapore to look for good food , but was quite lazy to do so . I'll do it next week again . Been interested in learning how to cook of late , so time to find the receipes online and do . Need to get a book to record down the receipes as well , if not everything that i have learnt would be forgotten :p

Finally , i had the urge to learn motorbike and car license . So i need to go and take theory test soon :p . Time to book it soon :p

Especially for those who are feeling bored , this is for you . :p
http://www.shockwave.com/content/shuffle/sis/shuffle.swf

The final straw

2007-09-12T20:28:00.000+08:00

谢谢你今天下来陪我吃饭。你一直以来都这么照顾我，我只能以这一餐来报答你了。希望还合你的口味。将来我生意做大的时候，you will be the sole beneficiary of everything :p

也很感谢你让我被点化了。至于那个想用一巴掌把我打醒的人，我想没这个必要了。:p Even without your intervention , i have woken up :p I only remember the way you say pink colour is very cute , so i shall give you the code name "Pink lady" then :p Will she kill me if i say that ? Hopefully not :p We shall know if we got the chance to meet again :p

原来人生就是这么一回事。If you know you did your best and still can't succeed , no matter how hard you try , things will eventually be the same . 在这个阶段，i already gave everything i have . If the end product is still the same , then 真的就如你们所说的一样:Don't waste your fc*king time . Sometimes in life , its just like that . You don't seem to see things going your way . Frustrating it may be , but this is life . Can't expect everything to go smooth sailing for you . If everything is smooth sailing , thats bad . One bad fall and you'll fall into some hole where you never get another chance to climb out of it :p

原来，i already wasted so much of my fc*king time without me realising it , 站在原地不动是不行的，人生是必须go through plenty of trials and 考验 before you finally become wise . 所以呢，its time for me to go and gather more knowledge and experience new things in the world . 这个世界has only just started for me . 还有很漫长的路要走的。

总而言之，记住该记住的，忘记该忘记的，这样我的人生也会过得精彩一点。有太多的事情等着我去一一处理。人生短短几十年 , living your life to the fullest is the best thing that can happen in life . So , from now on , what everyone will see in my blog will be about nice things in life . I'm not going to comment on anything negative any longer . All the negative things will only be in my mind and not here anymore , this would be a happy blog from now onwards :)

In conclusion , 我终于做了这个决定，你会为ah boy 感到高兴吗？这段日子，ah boy 的喜怒哀乐也只有你最清楚。还是只有你最了解ah boy 了。I'm always able to find solace in you . 谢谢你。我知道你一定会说什么了。Trust ah boy for once lar :p 我是认真的。:p Since when ah boy 做事情不认真过？:p 你的名言: "Time will tell" will not do anything from now onwards :p

Anyway , just to recap , which area got hit by earthquake ? I sure did :p

Pictures

2007-09-11T07:12:00.000+08:00

Thursday Pictures

New food junction at Bugis :p Prices comparatively ex though .

Donutsss :p

Friday

Can I have this as my office ?

Saturday

Funny but aristic area :p

Drinks that will make you LS :p

Special Pair of chopsticks hmmmmm :p

Someone wants me to mention him , but i never really use any of his pictures at all . So .......................... no need to mention then hahaha :p

Life of late

2007-09-11T06:54:00.000+08:00

I nvr once thought that i like blogging so much . Actually , blogs are used to depict my happy days and sad days . Which is why i wrote everything inside here . Special thanks to 你 who got me into the blogging habit :p

Life is a roller coaster after all . Some days , you just perk up . Some days , you just feel that everything is boring . Maybe , its because there's really nothing in work to do last week . So , i'm ultra sian to the max :p Its high time that someone gives me something to do . I want to learn all i can , i don't mind scoldings , just teach me the stuffs that i need to know :p

Well , just had training on monday , seems like i'm the slowest of the lot :p At least i'm doing something i guess .

Well , the week ended on a good note though . Fish and chip shop 不错嘛。第一次看到你 suddenly become a kid when you collected the sweets , that was a rare sight :p I'll definitely source for one balloon next time round . Even if dun have , i'll order it on the spot :p Worse come to the worse , blow myself haha:p

看到你跟你的bra de 撒娇的情景更加有趣。我从来没见过这样的你，was pretty surprised by that as well .

Had lots of fun on saturday though . Went touring around though , seen quite some stuffs around anyway . Thanks for the trip man :p Interesting enough though , lets do it again this week hopefully .

All right , lets turn to some serious topics .

some people just makes me feel so sick some times , does someone need to remember some minor things which happened few months back so violently ? You want to show you are respected ? What the heck ？Give me face to see ? 我牺牲了这么多，为的是什么？就是希望大家能和睦相处，我真的没想到结果会是这样。原来我所做的一切都是没用的。I even threw my final year results on the line just to accomodate you . Ultimately , people are judged by the mistakes you make . So i'm condemned just like that . If thats the case , don't expect me to do anything anymore . 我不会在做任何东西了。Sounds as if i'm begging you to forgive me . You chose to take this path , so don't expect me to turn back . There's a limit to everyone's anger , seems like your limit is boundless . There is a limit to how much i can tolerate also .

可能 my existence in society is not required after all . I'm more of a hindrance than help eh at times .

On the other hand , guessing woman's age is fun sometimes . But it does get you into hell of trouble :p So pissed off with me for what sia , i was only kidding hahaha :p Cannot take my sense of humour ? Then really too bad liao . Ironically , another person going off to sim to study . So you are the beneficiary of what i spent on the uni for the free escalator :p

My female colleague mentioned this . I　wonder how true is this .

For a singaporean , to guess her age , u gotta take your estimate and minus by 3 .

For a foreigner , to guess her age , u gotta take your estimate and add 5 .

I'll try that next time round . :p

Interesting day at work today :p I actually witnessed a matchmaking session in office :p I know listening to others talking is rude , but 讲到这么大声，谁听不到 ? :p
Anyway interesting quotes along the way as well . :p

没有100%的把握，我是不会出手的。

时间就是金钱，你还在等什么？

Actually , I disagree with the first phrase . :p 等到100%的时候，往往已经game over 了。Life is all about taking risks isn't it ? No risk no gain ?

As far as I remember , I only told my first audit team about how I got into the company . The rest didn’t know about it . So when a tap on my shoulder came from my friend's father , I was stunned :p “How's everything young man ? “ I am seriously stunned loh . Imagine the glares and looks around my colleagues . omg , how I hated that :p Adds more stress only to yourself . This is the kind of reason why I didn't really want to take up the job in the first place .

Anyway , I'll promise to work hard . So come on you slack ( I say slack because I dunno them yet and they haven give me work to do :p ) managers out there , give me work to do :p Actually , i was told to knock on their doors before to ask for things to do , but i dun even know them to begin with . Knock simi ? Stick on with the stuffs i am reading first i guess , after my 2nd job then we see how :p

A day of feelings

2007-09-05T00:51:00.000+08:00

今天 is the day where the results finally came out . 有人欢喜有人愁，well done to all those who did well . Well done to those who did ok , as for those who didn't really do well , don't worry . Life is not the end . Its not determined by how well you did , life has only just begun for you . From now on , its job experience and not results that matter anymore . Time files , 3 years of my sim education has passed . I really treasure the frends i made in sim . I hope we will still be together when convocation comes . meanwhile , 大家请保重。

我知道你很不开心 , 看到你这样还真是伤脑筋。不管发生什么事，我一定会一一替你挡下来。

Today , we'll talk about some stuffs which i have been thinking along the way just now .

一年前，如果有人问我爱到底是什么，老实说我还真不懂怎么回答。

现在，可能有一些答案了。Only when the other party gets into trouble will you really know how much you care for the other person . 今天就是有这种奇妙的力量在推动着我，告诉我必须完成我的任务，一心一意想让对方开心。Only when you see the other party smile or laugh then you will know that she actually feels much better . 看到你没事就好了 :) 这可能就是所谓的患难见真情吧。我也不是很清楚anyway :p Only god knows i think haha :p

爱没有所谓的值得或不值得的。I only know i should do what is right and what my heart tells me . That is good enough . 根本不需要去想how hard or how much effort i put in .

可能我就是属于这种痴情的 pattern , whatever resources i have with me would be used to the maximum of my ability . Only then will i feel i really did everything i can . 你就是我的priority , 没有人在我心里比你更重要了。I can seriously touch my heart and say that . :p

Thanks for all the input people , ultimately , this life is my own . No matter what you all say or see , 人生只能活一次。So let me lead the way i want . I'm not doing anything bad anyway , if i'm doing something which affects the balance of society , i can still understand all your concerns .

So let me pose a question out now to end this blogging session .如果你这生只能爱一次，你会选者轰轰烈烈的还是平淡的呢？I will take the former . 轰轰烈烈的一定是最刻苦铭心的，回忆也一定是最多的。Don't you all agree with that ?

Maybe i have more things to write , but this is the gist of what i wanted to say for tonight . 看着我自己写的东西，looks unbelieveable :p 原来我已经慢慢长大了。

Comments are welcome . Go ahead and shoot me if you think i'm wrong :p

Recap of the week

2007-09-03T17:13:00.000+08:00

Saturday
Plans were cancelled at the last min due to someone "saying he had a drop too much" , so everything was cancelled :p Anyway , big rain in the afternoon , wanted to go somewhere and relax and enjoy though , i was plain too lazy to go out anyway :p

Went to open E Savers account with standard chartered in the evening , finally i am beginning to start planning on how to save money . I know my money sense is not good , which is why i need help :p 昨天你骂得好，i know what to do already :p hmmm , vivocity was so packed :p Settled the thing in a flash and had to find programs to do after that . Headed down to Liquid Gold after that to drink and watch my beloved liverpool whack derby :p Could have been more , but its been a long time since i see liverpool trash people . 还好有你这个好朋友，要不然闷死了:p 好久没喝了，我的酒量变差了，一下子就要不行了。I need a trainer hahaha :p

Anyway , we are top of the table for the first time since i can remember :p Keep it that way lads , we're going to be the champions come May next year :p

Sunday
Rainy day again today , so practically nua at home surfing the net and playing games :p Rain stopped at about 4 though , so hurry up cycle to east coast for a ride :p 很久没有去了，感觉真是爽。However , the journey there was pretty sucky . Nearly got knocked down by a car , maybe i'm biased but that women driver was also at fault . Zebra crossing you want to dash across ？ Are female drivers road hazards ? Well , i'm not biased again ladies , so i gotta say maybe ? :p On my leisure ride , it got worse . A few bicycles crashed either behind me or in front of me , nearly knocked a little kid off though , i breaked furiously to avoid the collison . Luckily the tyres were not punctured , if not i'm going to have a tough time going home .

世界真是小，i actually saw a familiar face there . 祝你幸福快乐吧。This current one at first look seems ok , 加油。

While coming home , suddenly big rain :p Luckily , it was just a few mins away from home . Hurry up use all my energy and fly :p What a way to end my cycling trip :p Hope for more fun next time round . Pity i didn't really stop to take pictures . Will do so the next time i do another cycling trip :p

At night , saw my two little cute nieces ，the sight of both of them dropping teeths are just a joy to watch :p

Thats it for the weekend . What a way to end it :p

聊一聊别的。

老实说，didn't expect you to explain why u "so called" snub , thanks anyway , i appreciate that . 原来我所说的一切都是气话，我还是一样关心你，疼你的。:p Anyway , nice haircut . Looks more cute this way also :)

However , hmmm didn't mention this that night but don't you think its ironic ? Hmmm , few months back i was commenting on some comments you made and you said i was rude . What about now ? :p Doing the same thing also ma :p hmmm i see how u shoot back 小姐 :p I know you always have a way to do so haha :p

Sigh , 有时候老是觉得人真得很可怜。When you are old and suffering from major sickness , seeing them suffer is a pain at times . 好痛心看到你suffering like this at times , and yet i could do nothing at all . 我唯一能做的就是把握现在，不要等到没有机会的时候才来后悔。

Anyway , our results should be out soon , so gluck to all Sim students . Especially to 你。看你这么紧张，只能说祝你好运了。不要担心这么多 :)

Hmmmm , y so weird ?

2007-08-31T14:53:00.000+08:00

For the first 4 days of the week , i seems to be like a different person . I know this is absurd , but i have no recollection of things around me . Especially those who hold dear to me . Its something like when you suddenly got a huge knock into your head and you don't remember anything at all .

People would probably think of me as crazy or siao , but then my memories suddenly get flooded back with things which i don't seem to remember since the start of the week . Weird ?

Split personality ? I think thats nonsense , but how to explain what i actually experienced this week ? I know this is mad , BUT some "supernatural" things seems to take control of me for the 4 days . Right now , i am back to really the normal self . Forget what i wrote for mon , tues , weds . I read back and look at it , whose writings were those ?

Are they stuffs which i wrote subconsciously ? I really dunno ! Perhaps , just perhaps , its work stress which got to me i guess . I feel weird now , but it feels great to be reborn again . This should be the final entry for the week . Time for the weekends to begin :p

I'm back :p

2007-08-30T07:06:00.000+08:00

原来男人也有pissed off 的日子的。怪不得这几天都提不起any effort to 好好的工作。I'm back to my usual self again :p

可能是某些事情一旦看得清楚，momentarily 有一种失落感。This explains why i everyday oso feel so sian and tired :p not sure if 表姐你 agree on that though . The dunno work simi syndrome which you are talking about is nonsense , i don't suffer from that hahahaha :p

谢谢你的关心。还有你嘛哈哈哈哈。People always say no pain , no gain . I never gain anything , never lost anything at all . Probably what i lost is time i guess :p

Anyway , time to have a look at our "plans" since i have more time now :p Everytime i tell you i wanted to have a look at our opponents but everytime i forgot :p Nothing to bother me anymore from today onwards , guess i'll have more time to seriously have a look at our "rivals" . Write here to promise myself that :p Mr bloggy will be here to 见证 me doing so :p

真高兴看到the normal bubbly me :p

Fellow colleague , you are right after all . 认识多一点人，你就会了解你到底想要怎样的人。
Excellent phrase eh :p

I just realised my company is actually so famous after all lol , somemore its the person who interviewed me that was famous rofl . I will work hard , starting with today . Time to wrap up the audit work and head back to office :p Nice first audit job , i thoroughly enjoyed the experience . Fun but tired ~~~~~~~ :p

Scaring myself :p

2007-08-29T07:35:00.000+08:00

Regarding the post i made yesterday , perhaps i'm just scaring myself . :p Full of energy after a night's sleep :p

看来我是真的醒了，really wake up my idea already .

Nice weather outside sia , hope no more rain today .

Good morning World :p

Anyway , this is how my main office looks like :p

Blogging period

2007-08-28T22:13:00.000+08:00

Monday
New week ahead , but why do i seem so tired and bored ?Dun look forward to anything though hmmmmmm . Gotta share umbrellas with colleagues during lunch and in the end , all 3 of us got drenched at least one side . Hmmm , this is the result of having a poor umbrella i guess :(

Tuesday
Hmmmm , today was not any better . Even my colleagues can see that my mood is not good . Hmmmm , why ? I can't give an explanation for that . Not sure why i feel so bored and tired of late too . Is that PMS ? mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm , well , still dunno . Anyway , rain again . As usual , got drenched due to the poor umbrellas that we had again . :(

mmmmmmm , thinking about it , why did i get so angry in the first place ? Can't find a logical reason now . What is happening to my life ? Why is everything so bored and lacking of energy nowadays ?

I always had an optimistic view towards life , why am i turning to a pessimistic person of late ? I seems to have lost my direction in life as well . Is this depression ?

Judging from my attitude at work today , seems to be the case . No energy , feel sian and tired . Nothing really interests me . Staring blindly at work though . Eventually managed to do some work , but the mind is not there at all . Scary though , i guess i need help .

First Auditing Job

2007-08-27T21:14:00.000+08:00

Finally had time to do this . So lets just get things going .

Monday
First audit job . So excited :p Finally i get to experience what an audit job is like :) Supposed to go off in the morning but was held back to attend an orientation briefing :( Which means to say , i can only go in the afternoon . Oh well, just gonna wait then .

I think its hilarious , i actually just realised that the staffs inside know how excited i was for my first audit job . Did i actually show the look of a first time auditor ? :p I guess i did :p

Tues , Weds , Thurs
Well , have to do some testing assigned by my senior . Looking through all the documents sure wasn't an easy thing to do . Luckily , the accountants are helpful enough :p Thank goodness for that . Makes my job a weee bit easier considering that i just started :)

Friday
Finally , its the weekend approaching . Arranged a night out at chomp chomp with my mates :p Thanks guys , been a long time since we last gathered :p Why is the pint of hoe garden so big ? :p

Thanks for the financial tips anyway , i know that now i'm finally working , there is a real need to plan for my future . :p

Saturday
Pretty sick day , first of all , kena snub for no apparant reason . If not free , just say not free , dun need to give me attitude . I dun think i deserve that . Besides , i'm not the one who makes u pissed wats so ever . Secondly , all the plans which i made went haywire . Sorry guys , i didn't realise that my management skills was so lousy , i'll brush up and make it up this week . Everyone makes mistakes at times , give me a chance , i'll put things right :)

What i didn't realise was that , my keys were important to me after all . Just practically destroyed my plans for the weekend . Thats just so sick . Can only blame myself for leaving the keys in the bag i guess . :(

Sunday
Still quite pissed with how Saturday went . This is the period where anyone better don't give me a dynamite to ignite in front of you . I'm sure you won't like it . 原来一个人心情不好的时候，不管rain how big , it will never 平复心中的感受。

Anger management course number 1 : If you are angry , go to bed . Eventually , you will cool down .

Slept practically the whole day . Finally saw through some things for once .
原来，我在你的眼里根本是worthless的。你高兴就哈哈大笑，不高兴就snub我？你到底把我当成了什么？就算真的只是好朋友，好朋友是这样被对待的吗？Respect others before you want others to respect you . I'm disappointed . 了解一个人probably takes ages to do so , i just realised i don't even know you at all . I don't even know whats the magical touch that makes me feel you are worth me loving at all . 所有的感觉都没了。I believe this is it . 我醒了，再也不会做痴情的人慢慢地守护着你，因为你根本都不值得我这么做。I should have given up long ago , i'm not going to care anymore . From now on , i'll just go on with my life . Without you , life would still be beautiful .

My thoughts are very confused . I dunno what i'm writing at all . Maybe this is my limit . I just can't stand people snubbing me . I had enough , words just can't describe how i felt .

Lets end it this way then . You are just a passerby after all .

What A Weekend

2007-08-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

Friday
Work as usual , plan for the night still to be confirmed To go for plan A or plan B ? Been hard at work . Trying to learn as much as possible . But the weather kind of sucks . So cold in office . No jacket at all , the only way i can help myself is go to the pantry and get some hot drinks like milo and coffee . Haven't really ventured into the pantry to have a look , finally i have the chance to explore ! :p
Other than the pantry , still learning to do things properly . Give me some new schedules soon i hope , especially going out to audit . I'm sure that will be interesting :)

Plan A failed , so switch to plan B . Nvm , first time u fly me aeroplane , forgive you :) Arrange again next week :p

对不起，你说得对。我是听不进去的。I made up my mind already , 就让我一个人自己去发觉吧。最后会怎样，我想你跟我多多少少都有一些答案吧。不comment也好，至少不会浪费你的口水。Anyway , 我心灵了。

Hmmm , fireworks , position so lousy see simi ? aiyo :p 漂亮的scenery.Pity我的phone没用，megapixel too low , or else i can take some great pictures . Thanks for the friday night everyone . All right , i'll organise again the next coming friday on where to go again :p

Hmmm , nearly became alone overnight though . Kettle was burning at home when i reached home . Had an explosion happened , i would be left alone in this world forever from this day onwards . Forunately , it hasn't happened . Don't do that to me please the gods from above , you know my world would surely crumble down . :(

Saturday
Well , supposed to be soccer time , played one game . Needed to keep the clothes for fear of rain . By the time i come back , big rain lol . Ended up going to Old airport road for breakfast cum lunch . Nice seeing the soccer kakis again , the rubbish you all blurted out sometimes are just lame :p Nevertheless , interesting enough :p

At night , hmmmmmmm , saw you guys again ? What A coincidence :p Joined you all and your girls for dinner . Hmmm , steamboat ? Haven had them in a long time coming :p Round 2 again after the steamboat . What A Feast :p Ironically , i didn't pay a single cent :p Wanted to pay , you all say no need . Nvm , next week soccer we see how :p Obviously , the lame stuffs just keep on coming . Good laugh for a saturday night :p

Newcastle 0 Villa 0

Wasted my time in watching eh , Typical 0-0 game . Saw someone's fav owen come back though , he sucks lar :p Hair grow long oso no use . Show me the goalssss :p

Sunday

Supposed to have lunch with my grandmother and later for mahjong , but sister was slow . So everything kind of gets delayed . Anyway , the mrt ride was interesting though :p Sis and I making hell of a noise :p Been some time since i had a chance to talk to my sister though , so makes up a bit for some bonding session i guess :p

Very handsome and very cute sis eh , getting handome by the day hahahaha :p What a match of brothers and sisters :p

Anyway , only got time to take 2 dishes from the restaurant though , the rest of the food was eaten up in a rush hahaha :p

After that , mahjong session :p For once , i am the biggest loser :p Anyway , entertainment was all it counts . But for somehow or rather , couldn't concentrate at the end . I dunno y though , 心不在焉 for at least 20 mins . Anyway , thanks for the entertainment lol :p

Soccer headlines

Man City 1 Man U 0

Man U suckssss :p 16th in the table now . Relegation form hahahaha :p I'm going to laugh at all man u supporters from now onwards . They just simply cannot make it :p

Liverpool 1 Chelsea 1

Mr rob styles , the refree of the game has just pissed me off big time . Can you kindly explain how that penalty came about ? A chelsea player bumped into a liverpool player in the liverpool penalty box and you give a penalty to chelsea ? If you gave that penalty at stamford bridge , i have nothing to say . But how dare you give it at anfield ? Most probably you fixed the game and buy draw for the match , i have no reason to see why you gave a penalty . And anyway , since when does soccer players have so many lifelines ? 2 yellow cards = 1 red card isn't it ? So why wasn't essien sent off ? This is ridiculous . Thanks ref , you just made my night . If i'm in england right now , a beer bottle would probably fly straight to your head :p

Eventually slept at 5 in the morning after another talking session after that :p Thanks for dropping me at Punggol :p Easier to go home oso :)

Thats it for the weekend . More to come i hope :)

Blogging In Office

2007-08-17T11:44:00.000+08:00

Well , nothing to do liao at the moment . Never really go ask what to do next . So lets try and blog now . :p Ask after lunch ba :p Now let me relax a while first :p

Learnt a lot this week , been getting used to seeing the numbers game . Numbers is what makes up audit and accounting isn't it ? I'm not really scared of numbers but sometimes they just drives you mad or stressed when you can't see the rationale of where the numbers come from .

原来有一个人教 makes things easier , hmmmm , thank you "teacher" . You really make me feel at place at work . Hope we can be very good working partners together :) I'm sure we will be in times to come . At least , you were very patient when you are teaching me though , i really appreciate that :)

hmmm , growing into a working world means you get to see lots of well dressed personnel around :p All the women you see around looks so nicely dressed . Hmmm , makes you wanna have a glimpse or 2 more . :p Been running errands around of late , suntec city and raffles city is so near my workplace , gonna see more in future i guess :p Welcome to the working world boy :p

Getting tired of late easily though , is it work that causes me to be so tired ? Hmmmm , all the late night soccer would have to be abandoned now unless it starts at 11 or 10.30 pm . I just can't tahan anymore longer :p Thats bad isn't it ? Still got so much movies to watch though , i wished i can watch it , but i guess its during the weekends where i would have the time already :p

你跟我说的话，我全都听进去了。我知道你是关心我才会这么说的。sigh , 只能说我傻吧。我也不知道还能说什么。Lets just leave it as that . Time will tell isn't it ?

一直没有见到你，但是老是在梦里见到你。看到的你永远都是开心的，这也该足够了吧。这是不是所谓的日有所思，夜有所梦呢？

Its friday today . :) Looking forward to the weekend ahead . Time for some well deserved rest . :)　Need some energy to continue the fight for next week though :p Let the weekends Begin :p A weekend full of soccer action awaits :p By the way , man u sucks hahahaha :p Continue to draw , soon u'll be out of touch :p

Oh ya, thanks for the fashion advice anyway . Do i look like a clown with the tie on ? Looks ok to me though hmmmmm :p

Mid week blog

2007-08-15T01:02:00.000+08:00

Monday

First day of work . Dunno what to except though :p . Got isolated in one room and read 2 audit reports . Hmmmmmm , is that training for a start ? Not sure though , some of the things look so similar to what i studied in the past . Hmmmm , i'm beginning to miss school , sounds like the good old days though :p

Handed me some menu to read though , looks like i'll be getting a free lappy and thumb drive . Being part of audit team , a laptop would mean more responsibility and more work to do . OMG :p Nevertheless , i'll look forward to it :p

Very "gum" with my receptionist though , probably one of my spies who can feed me more information about the company lol :p

Tuesday

Much much worse than yesterday :p Yesterday only saw the basics of the work done . I saw more today :p . Trying to find how do they get the numbers from omg . In the end , the day was filled with numbers game :p Still isolated in a room though , took some pictures of it though . Seems like i'm like one of the managers eh , the whole table is mine . And look at that free lappy :p To show that i'm like one of the managers , i even had time to take a shot at the outside scenery :p

Mind filled with numbers , dunno how to settle . Talk again tomorrow :p I'm still in the learning stage . I'll need more time to have a grapse on whats going on i guess :)

One thing i noticed about auditors ...hmmm really a quiet bunch , am i able to work successfully with these quiet bunches of people ?

Hmmm , documents omg :p

More , more :(

Maciam manager office , still can take outside shots lol :p

My lappy :p

well , getting a bit tired . Leave my thoughts for another day ~~~ ***Yawn***

Fresh Week Ahead :)

2007-08-13T01:01:00.000+08:00

Picked up where i left off .

Thursday
National Day . Routine was supposed to watch fireworks , this time round , off to frends house to play mahjong in the evening .Not bad , entertaining session . Caught a glimpse of the fireworks on tv , so this is how the governement spends our tax money eh . I'm going to contribute to you soon :(

Interesting topic discussed eh :p All right , now i have just adopted a mei mei . :p jie jie will protect you de :p Anyway , to reiterate , i'm straight ! . Just that i might have female elements in me :p So doubtors out there , stop questioning me that again :p Anyway , thanks for the trip to punggol :p Its easier for me to get home that way rather than from the mahjong area :p

Friday
Important day . Finally signed the contract which gurantees me the audit job :p Now , i will definitely see a change in my life :p Thanks for all the advice given . I finally have a direction in life haha :p Meal treat on me once i get my paycheck :p . Time to find someone who's working around my area oso for lunch ~~~~

Saturday
Morning soccer ~~~~~ . Not bad , 45 mins of play . One goal conceded only haha :p Could have been a clean sheet though :p

Afternoon was a record breaker . Went to 拜公公 instead . Well , sometimes 不信邪也不可以。How can an unbiased coin turn up the same outcome 7 times in a row ? I have never ever seen that before and i don't think i will again . In broad daylight somemore :p Ever seen someone praying and using 3 joss sticks worth of time ? (To be exact : 3/1/2) Well , you just seen one :p Interesting ~

Sunday
Busy day , watched The Light in the morning , Goal 2 in the afternoon . No time for final destination 3 though , watch it tomorrow i hope :p Went for one final shopping session before work . Looks like i'm ready for work now with everything in place for now :p

Nice weekend of epl action though . Liverpool you rockssss . Steve G more of that to come pls . 37 more winning games and we'll take the title . As for Man u , lol you are a joke . Can't believe how you acutally draw that game :p As for now , we are 2 points ahead :p

一切都有一些新的开始了，希望真的是如此吧。

Songs to share

2007-08-09T15:23:00.000+08:00

爱情转移陈奕讯

徘徊過多少櫥窗　住過多少旅館
才會覺得分離也并不冤枉
感情是用來瀏覽　還是用來珍藏
好讓日子天天都過得難忘

熬過了多久患難　濕了多長眼眶
才能知道傷感是愛的遺産
流浪幾張雙人床　換過幾次信仰
才讓戒指義無反顧的交換

＊把一個人的溫暖　轉移到另一個的胸膛
　讓上次犯的錯反省出夢想
　每個人都是這樣　享受過提心吊膽
　才拒絕做愛情待罪的羔羊

　回憶是抓不到的月光握緊就變黑暗
　等虛假的背影消失於晴朗
　陽光在身上流轉　等所有業障被原諒
　愛情不停站　想開往地老天荒　需要多勇敢＊

燭光照亮了晚餐　照不出個答案
戀愛不是溫馨的請客吃飯
床單上鋪滿花瓣　擁抱讓它成長
太擁擠就開到了別的土壤

感情需要人接班　接近換來期望
期望帶來失望的惡性循環
短暫的總是浪漫　漫長總會不滿
燒完美好青春換一個老伴

REPEAT＊＊

你不要失望　蕩氣迴腸是爲了　最美的平凡

伤痕林忆莲

夜已深
还有什麽人
让你这样醒着数伤痕
为何临睡前会想要留一盏灯
你若不肯说
我就不问
只是你现在不得不承认
爱情有时候是一种沈沦
让人失望的虽然是恋情本身
但是不要只是因为你是女人
若爱得深
会不能平衡
为情困
折磨了灵魂
该爱就爱
该恨的就恨
要为自己保留几分
女人独有的天真
和温柔的天分
要留给真爱你的人
不管未来多苦多难
有他陪你完成
虽然爱是种责任
给要给得完整
有时爱美在无法永恒
爱有多销魂
就有多伤人
你若勇敢爱了就要勇敢分
夜已深
还有什麽人
让你这样醒着数伤痕
为何临睡前会想要留一盏灯
你若不肯说
我就不问
(music)
若爱得深
会不能平衡
为情困
折磨了灵魂
该爱就爱
该恨的就恨
要为自己保留几分
女人独有的天真
和温柔的天分
要留给真爱你的人
不管未来多苦多难
有他陪你完成
虽然爱是种责任
给要给得完整
有时爱美在无法永恒
爱有多销魂
就有多伤人
你若勇敢爱了就要勇敢分
女人独有的天真
和温柔的天分
要留给真爱你的人
不管未来多苦多难
有他陪你完成
虽然爱是种责任
给要给得完整
有时爱美在无法永恒
爱有多销魂
就有多伤人
你若勇敢爱了就要勇敢分
夜已深
还有什麽人
让你这样醒着数伤痕
为何临睡前会想要留一盏灯
你若不肯说
我就不问

梦醒时分陈淑桦

你说你爱了不该爱的人
你的心中满是伤痕
你说你犯了不该犯的错
心中满是悔恨
你说你尝尽了生活的苦
找不到可以相信的人
你说你感到万分沮丧
甚至开始怀疑人生
早知道伤心总是难免的
你又何苦一往情深
因为爱情总是难舍难分
何必在意那一点点温存
要知道伤心总是难免的
在每一个梦醒时分
有些事情你现在不必问
有些人你永远不必等

Meaningful words . Enjoy ~

Happy national Day ~

2007-08-09T03:59:00.000+08:00

Tuesday

Last day at work , why do i have the 依依不舍的感觉？Perhaps its like that , working at this place for some time already . Grown used to the custom already . Thanks Joyce , the stuffs which you shared with me during work was valuable . I'm sure i need more guidance from you in future . I can't believe i actually talked to you about life during work lol .

Weds
Rest day , just quit yesterday and needed to refresh myself for the next new job - Audit . People have always said that audit is a tough job , i know its tough . I see it as a challenge . 不用担心，我开始慢慢知道自己要的是什么，跟你discuss这样的东西也快2months了吧，finally knew what i wanted . A challenge . A job where you get to interact . A job where you'll learn a lot . A job where no matter where u go , u'll hold pride and prestige in whatever you do . You may be hated , with my personality , i'll make sure that is not the case . I'll try to be the relevation in whatever i do . Hopefully , i can do it .

你天天都在make我的脑袋想what to do , finally i see a plan and path in my life . 我真的长大了吗？This is where i should be heading , a place where i know i might succeed . Its not a gurantee , but at least i have the chance now to make it happen .

"Everyone appears in your life for a reason”.
I still remember writing this in my earlier entries , 原来我终于明白了这句话的含义。原来people are such complicated creatures after all . 看多了，也明白了人与人之间的丑恶。我看清了，也明白了。时间根本不重要了，我必须往前走，总有一天一定会有一道光明的路线在等着我。by then , that will be my final stop .

你也说过人很多时候是需要go through something before you can finally learn , i agree with you on that totally :)

The world is full of funny people , slowly but surely , i can discover that . Even in taxi trips , making small talks with taxi drivers makes you understand a lot of things as well . Interesting ~

Oh ya , happy national day to everyone :) Lets celebrate our country's 42nd birthday in Style .

Happy Birthday Singapore :)

Updates of Late

2007-08-07T01:38:00.000+08:00

Continue with weds

Tried to blog in office , but wasn't able to do so . Supervisor keeps stopping me from doing so lol , anyway those 2 fellow temp suddenly disappeared (*****clap*****) Just got pay and did a disappearing act . I dunno what to say though , only can say both of you have no work attitude . Anyway , with both your "pattern" , i doubt you can last long lar seriously . Not that i want to pour cold water , but a fact is a fact .

Thurs

mmmmm , one man show . Too many things to handle , by now , job scope confirm routine already . Learnt what i needed to learn already . Feeling that my time here could be almost up . Slowly but surely was what i felt .

Friday

Half day work , got interview in the afternoon . Baker Tilly hmmmmmmmmmm , think i need to thank you for your recommendation . An offer was placed in front of me . Need to think about it though .Thanks anyway jing jing .I appreciate your effort :)

After work , went shopping ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ , got office clothes but i know i still got more to get .

谢谢你帮我看contract,没看过这种东西,真不知该怎么办。Thanks for your offer for a "work" gift as well , luckily the tie was spoilt . 要不然又要你破费了。你对我最好了，永远都这么疼我。:)

Saturday

Hmmmm , soccer ~~~~ . Long time never played with you guys already . Still remember the times when everyone was wild with soccer during sec 2 :p Remember that period of time was the period where illegal gathering ruling was first introduced :p Imagine 20 people standing in front of the school office :p That was a real pleasant sight isn't it lol .

Anyway , became a superman and saved a lot of goal bound shots hahaha :p How did i do that ? hmmmmmmm , Thanks for the game guys . Fun and entertaining .

Shopping again after that once more ~~~~~~~

Sunday

Hmmmm , late for the usual mahjong session though . Paiseh , got some important things to settle at the last min . Another miracle comeback again though hahahahahaha :p Seems like only you guys can let me play such comebacks . How come i don't have such lucks with the other kakis of mine ?

Man U 1 Chelsea 1
Hmmmm , Chelsea are so lousy , miss all their penalties lol :p Nvm , based on the curse of the charity shield , winners of the league might not be man u also . The new season starting . So lets root for LIVERPOOL　:p I　always dreamt of winning the league title ever since i supported this team 10 years back . So come on , give me what the fans deserve . The league title :p Good luck liverpool :)

Monday

Hmmmm , as usual late for work . Today's productivity was a bit slow , not sure why but it probably has got to deal with the fact that i'm leaving soon i guess . Will try hard to complete everything as i know i'm going to quit tomorrow .

Thanks for everything . I really learnt a lot here . Time to move on to a new working environment which is audit . 加油加油加油 :)

At night soccer ~~~~~ . Tiring to play so many games in the space of a few days :p Exercise is good though . When the new job starts , wonder if i have time to do all that :)

hmmmmmm , 你说了很多，我全都听见了，call me stubborn if you wish.If it is so easy to implement what you have said , I believe i can walk away being a much better and happier person . 老实说，你问的问题，我真的不知道要怎么回答你。让我好好想一下吧。答案可能会一段时间才出现吧。你有你的看法，我有我的看法。我也知道就是因为是兄弟你才会这么说的。Anyway , thanks :p

Today , your mindset is perfect for paperwork and other small tasks . Use it while you have it as you might need to get back to the big picture before you know it . There is no need to leave anything undone .

I was so slack yesterday so how can this be true ? lol

Mid Week Again

2007-08-01T01:05:00.000+08:00

Monday
Learning new things every day . Besides counting coins , i must also play with the weighing machine . can't remember the exact weights though :p Still must use cable tie to tie up the big bags of money . Can i bring one home pls ? :p For $6 per hour , this is cheap labour :p . Still , shan't complain about it . Its still money after all , for now i'm definitely a slave to money .

Tuesday
Hmmmm , another new thing to learn . This time round : stock take . Showed me the layout on how to do it . And i'm supposed to coordinate with the forklift driver on how to arrange the drinks properly hmmmmmm . Plan seems to have been delayed as the lorry came late :( Faint man , heng no need OT as their forklift driver wants to knock off at 5.30 :p Seems to be learning lots of stuffs at work . Hopefully , will help me a fair bit in due time to come .

btw , My responsibility level very high meh ? First time let people comment until like that rofl :p Hopefully that is the case eh . :p Not too sure about that though :p

好，今天心情不是很好。在深夜的时候，我只能把我想说的寄放在这里吧。

Been 2 months since i have graduated , its august today . Meaning to say results are coming soon . Thats not a good sign isn't it ? Anyway , come what they may , i have tried my best . If the results are not what i expected , too bad .

Still trying hard to find a perm job though , not so easy after all mmmmm . 有些时候是及不来的，我只能慢慢地等待机会的到来。Special thanks to jing jing for helping though , think the interview that is arranged on Friday is your dad's company ? This puts me in a bit of dilemna . 我没忘记那晚msn所说过的东西，听了真叫我有一点担心。在Mavis的Wedding上重逢能说是一种缘分吧，but thats about it . 老实说，我也不清楚你跟你老爸说了什么，我就是有这种感觉这个interview一定过。Audit Junior , i don't mind starting as this , can let me know how other industries work as well . 但是，the possibility of me becoming a white horse seems high eh ? 我不想靠这种关系进去，可能是我想太多了，但不得不怪我这么想。希望我的想法是错的吧。

Sent more job resumes out the other night , got 2 more cover letters to send later .
拜托你了，you are still the only one i can trust in times of need . :)

有时候，我真的觉得我越来越不了解woman. This is a proven fact . 生日想wish你你都不接电话，还想我怎样呢？发脾气难道只是woman的权利吗？都过了一段时间了, 那晚我都没在生你的气，我是真的赶时间。就算真的要生气，我也只生eeek的。我长大的环境就是这样的，nothing can change that fact . 从来就没有不尊敬你过。anyway 算了，你还想生多久，你就去生吧，我不管了。Its not easy to please everyone at all . So why am i trying so hard to please everyone ? woman are all alike . when someone pisses you off , you just refuses to talk . You need time to cool down ? Take it , i'm not going to care anymore . 好人永远都是难做的。俗语说得好，千万不要得罪woman，要不然连死字怎么写都不知道。sigh ............

再来就是reflect on what we said of late . 对，没错，it is always tiring to be searching around . 有些时候真的只能问命运了。这让我想起了一件事i have heard of late ：To love or to be loved . Which one do you prefer ?

To Love takes a lot of effort , hard work and determination to 让对方感受到你的诚意，however , 对方可以不领情。You'll probably be wasting time in doing so .

Be Loved 当然不同了，你只需要wait for 人家对你的付出 ,至于你要不要有所表示in return 真的是up to 你自己了 . At least , you get to choose what you want ?　

Obviously the 2nd option is better lar , what do you think ? 就是再问你了。:p 对，那个根him有一腿的。hahahaha :p

Just realised sister is getting into all sorts of problem now . 太久没被骂了，getting a bit out of hand . Scolding 治标不治本，i better really try to get into her and have a look at what kind of mess she's been creating of late . So , in short , i better control my temper before i talk to her , if not , i'll end up scolding her again since no one dares to do so to her at home . Too pampered eh ?

对了 , transform into other forms ? True , Some things, once gone, are gone for good . Whatever lives on would be what happens in your dream . 就算真的在梦里见到你，我只能看到最真实的你在梦里。真的就只剩下梦里才能见面吗？

好，horoscope section now :)

It could be a long morning for you as it seems practically impossible to get your motor running . There is not enough coffee in the world to fix it , so do not give yourself the shakes - just take your time .

If i really take my time , i'm gonna be very very late for work everyday . True in the first sentence though . :p

Hmmm , do have one lame joke for today though ,

A guy runs into a bar and says, "Bartender, quick! Give me 20 shots of your best Scotch!"

So the bartender lines up 20 shots of his best Scotch and watches this guy down one after the other.

"Man," the bartender says, "I've never seen anyone drink shots that fast!"

"You'd drink them that fast too if you have what I have," the guy says.

"Oh my God," says the bartender, "what do you have?"

"50 cents."

Enjoy ~

Wrap Up For The Week

2007-07-30T00:16:00.000+08:00

Friday
Switched to some interesting things though at work - Counting Coins . hmmmmmmm , can i have some of it as well ? Temp admin assistant really is 包山包海。Nvm , the job is still ok , at least i have the freedom to do the stuffs i wanted . Not that boring to me at least , there's radio , mmmmm internet , and Msn! Who says work is a bore ? :p Just that , its temp and there's no prospects :( At least i learnt something hmmmmmmmmmm

Saturday
No lobang to go out , plus it was raining :( . Stayed at home and completed Zone Of Anders 2 :p Easy mode of course can complete lar :p Took me hmmmmmm , 6 hours ? Nvm , zone of anders one next week :)

Sunday
Hmmmm , morning as usual game , plus rain again :( Paiseh man , i know you wanted to jio mahjong today but dun have the mood to play . Another day ok ? Late afternoon , Chinatown see handphone ? Hmmmm , not that i wanted to see though , debating between going East Coast and Chinatown . Close friend so long liao , you jio i sure steady , of course Chinatown lar :p Hmmmm , people's park does have some stuffs to shop after all . Now , let me have some $$$$ in pocket so that i can continue to shop for office clothes :p

Hmmmm , Ralf , want to chase then go ahead man . Don't use me as decoy lar :p I don't mind being one , after all , i like to see people 成双成对 happily together . Doesn't matter if i have one or not :p Hmmm , you need to work harder i guess . Give you a hint though ，But no comments ok ? Not even talk to me about it . You can only see what i write in this blog and nothing else . Sorry karen , gonna betray u a weee bit :p The thing is : You Scared her liao lar bro(this is her actual quote , don't go and ask her about it , she'll kill me :p) , so better think of what you can do in the next step . Anytime you need this decoy of mine , let me know again . :p Anyway , i know more than what you think i know . Want happiness ? Fight for it man :) You have my support :p Whatever ammo or live rounds i can provide for you is limited , so make do with it :) Don't say i not friend enough haha :p

Interesting Soccer Headlines - Iraq 1 Saudi Arabia 0 .
What did i say in the afternoon ? Stranger things do happen after all . Moral of the story : When you are in the money , go and exercise and gurantee a profit , as a finance student , that is what you are supposed to do hahahahahaha :p 不听老人言，吃亏在眼前。Not saying serves you right lar , but then exercise prudence ma :p Fellow finance student , this kind of thing no need me to teach one leh , this is called Greed :p Look what happened now ? hahahaha , can't stop by laughing again :p

Hmmmmm , time for a new column from today onwards . Let me flip the life section :p

Sunday Horoscope

There may be a mystery surrounding the current situation , but thats no reason to jump to conclusions - you could pull a hamstring and injure yourself in other ways . Expect a few shortcomings but move on .

Hmmmmmmmmm , previous sessions one were pretty accurate , why i don't seem to catch a ball today ? Does that mean that job interview not successful ? We will know soon :)

Lastly , hmmmmmmm general discussion question . What to look out for in a job ?
I believe i will leave out some things , so let me know if i left out any important things .

Pay Package ?
Job Scope ?
Job Prospects ?
Working Environment ?

Cannot think of any liao . Supply by commenting pls :p

Getting tired . Time to end the blog for this week .

Job Search time and back to bed ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Oh ya , almost forgot . New hope , New start to the week . 加油加油加油。There will always be something to look forward to during the week :)

New song to intro . Nice ~~~~~~~~

2007-07-29T11:57:00.000+08:00

Been hearing a lot of commercials or promotions on this during work . I like this song . Here are the lyrics :p

周杰伦不能说的秘密

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
又何必去改变已错过的时间
你用你的指尖阻止我说再见
想象你在身边在完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

Those who don't have it , get it downloaded . Movie coming out on 8thAugust i think . Time to catch it :p

Mid week blogging

2007-07-26T22:44:00.001+08:00

Hmmmmm , can't be blogging every single day . So lets blog now . Could be another lengthy one again though lol . (Why do i have so much things to say mmmmmmmmmmmmm)

Monday
Seems to have settled into the pokka job . Hmmmm , switched roles to play with the computer at last and MSN lol . Time to train my multitasking session though . Without msn , i would probably fall asleep in front of the computer . I need to work harder at work . I know its only a temp job , if i keep yawning in front of all these numbers , when i really get a perm banking job , i think i'm dead lol :p Oh ya , the auditors left . Hmmmm , 1 week it takes to settle everything ? Sounds fast :p

Tuesday
mmmmmm , nothing really much happening . At night was the killer though . hmmmm , midnight mahjong session lol . I'm the shooter the whole night . Call me the gunners fan for the night man :) Perhaps too tired , never think properly when hitting tiles . Hmmmm , just not concentrating , dunno why . Perhaps its the stress in the data entry job , makes me feel like relaxing . Anyway , winning or losing in mahjong has never been a factor in all my mahjong sessions . Its just entertainment . Play again another time then :)

Wednesday
Seems like my multitasking skill have improved ! Msn and entering data at the same time ! hmmmmm , i will soon train up to be an expert soon lol . At night , hmmmmm , collected notes back from karen (aiyo , next time dun make me travel so far leh , thought of going home first wan :p) . Heard of kakis going St James Power station , hmmm before 9 Guys are free . Better hurry up get chop first before i need to pay cover charge . Waste money sia :p Hmmmmmmm never been there before so wanted to go down to have a look . How different is it from zouk ? Hmmmmm , very different i guess . The age group of the crowds differs so much . Here , looks like the crowd for working class personnels . Pretty boring dunno why , despite a lot of people going . Am i sick and tired of all these night spots already ? Maybe ...... i never was a chiongster , just that after exams nothing to do , went down to see see look look . When i find a perm job , maybe can start to explore all the night spots out and see which are the best chilling areas . After all , Singapore are known for vibrant Night Life ! :p

Got a call for an interview from citibank . Transaction Processing Officer . First Bank interview though , butterfiles in my stomach . Yet , i never really did much research and ended up sleeping after leaving St james early due to the lack of interest hmmmmmmmm .

As to how i got this interview , hmmmmmm funny contact i have lol . Never seen this online friend that i have at all . Just happened to chat to her that night and we were talking about what we were doing of late . Suddenly ask her got job lobang or not ? And she say her mother was working in Citibank , Hmmmm so here's the link to it :p Very kind of her though , don't even know me at all and yet you offered to refer me . Quite touched by this gesture hmmmmmmmmmmmmm . Thanks anyway Candice (hmmmm , dunno your real name though lol , ask next time )

Oh ya , forgot to thank irc for this lobang . I actually known you inside the chat area lol . So ladies and gentlemen , need lobang in banking , can try irc . You may have the lucks to get something . Everyone make your own luck in getting something . Perhaps , this is my lucky break :p

Thursday
Did my temp job up to 12 in the afternoon and went home to put my stuffs and prepare for interview . Heavy heavy rain , omg how i hated that :( . Heard must put tie on for interview hmmmmm not sure how true is it ? After all , still a banking position . Don't have tie at all , gotta go suntec and search for one . Been a million years since i wore a tie though , let alone shop for one . Thanks to the sales person who helped me tie it :p Besides buying tie , felt like buying disposable contact lenses as well . Haven been wearing that for a million years as well , think i look like a nerd with glasses on , so lets change some image :p (爱美就是要付出代价的，in this case should be 金钱。:p)

Hmmmmm , millemium tower , went up and there were like so many people working in the office . Girls outnumber the guys though . Hmmmmm , did i wear in an inproper manner ? Why do the ladies keep staring at me ? hmmmmmmmm , make me feel so stressed :p . I keep wondering whats wrong though , especially the row or column next to the boss's table . Too handsome meh ? hahahaha , rubbish :p I don't see myself as one though , low self esteem perhaps ? mmmmm maybe i look too presentable but thats besides the point , i need to get through 老板娘的那关先。
Anyway , this interview didn't really stress me out , was much ok than i thought . Better than the ESPN Star Sports one though :p Not sure if i got this job though .
Recalling what they asked me . hmmmm , asked me about my job experience . Talking about the job scope and how they badly needed people to work on Public Holidays and up till 8pm at night . I don't mind , i'm able to take hardships , so bring it on ~~

Asked about why should i hire you question (as expected) . Tells them a bit of my independent ability (Heng i was in scout platoon in army , if not where got example hahaha) . Talks about team player ability and they threw me a question which i believed i flunk hahaha :p Not sure what they thought of that though . (What kind of sports would you recommend to the staff down here to play ? About 30 personnels though . Faint , how to answer this kind of question ?)

Ask me on the generics of problem solving . Wow , thats tough , but i guess i did ok . Gave me a scenario of a problem and ask me how to solve hmmmmm .

Out of topic but they even asked me who i knew to get this resume sent to them . Luckily , i remember my frend's mother's name who was apprantly in the office but i dunno who ! Maybe thats why the ladies are staring at me mmmmmmmmmmmmm . If she asks me to pinpoint to her who is that , i tell u i'm practically dead lol :p

Hope i did well to get in :p My interest is in the banks . Just get into it first and see where it can take me would be better isn't it ? After all , the valuable experience gained inside banks would put me in good stead as well in hopping in the future :p So lady boss , come on do your job . Call me and offer me the job :)

Oh ya , went arcade to play games after that . Another million years never went arcade liao , 重出江湖吗？Not bad , fun enough . If i get this job , the arcade would probably see an increase in business from me :)

好了，聊一聊别的。

你觉得是不是for you ? 明知故问:p Ya , it would be difficult to plan any more outings . At least for now i guess . Wait till everyone stabilise their jobs or found something first , we can always arrange something out of it . 只要有心，什么都有可能的。最多早plan一点吧。对你这个nua kia ，早跟晚还是一样，makes no difference lol . Anyway ,that would be some time lar , when the time comes then say . Meanwhile , there is always msn or sms around , make the effort to remain in contact 就可以了。有什么问题的话还是可以问我的,i will try to offer help to the best of my ability .

戒烟 ? About time as well :p Been nagging about it for almost the whole time i seen you during school days . Anyway , its all up in the mind . When you are determined to do something , you will succeed . Wishing you good luck in quitting :p

接下来就是表姐你的turn了。(i'll use most of it in chinese , to show that my chinese also power one :p)

该对你表示我的谢意了。（what better way to do it via blogging ? )
小时候的我还真坏，还会用那四个字弄你哭。你跟我都不可能忘记的对吧？哈哈哈。长大了之后又曾经因为一些不管我们的事的东西而分开了，让我留下一个很大的遗憾：就是无法参加你的婚礼。好在我生日的时候有回来，要不然我们可能一辈子也不会见面了不是吗？

这段日子，听了你不少的gossip,同时你也听了我不少的gossip。最重要的是，每当我有东西不知道该如何解决的时候，都是你帮了我解决掉它。有你这个万能通的表姐，我真的好骄傲。你每一次都可以给我很constructive的点子，但是我好像都没有给到你任何的点子in return 。

我生病的时候，你会好象我第二个妈妈似的，叫我去看医生。有interview的时候，你还会跟我说what to do and what not to do . 这样的人上哪里找呢？Its naggy at times , but i appreciate what you have done :)

你表弟我真得很感动。至于broommm broooommmm 的事 , 为了报答你，我会努力快点去学，so that even if "him" 还没complete 的时候，还有我嘛。meanwhile , 你就耐心的等待吧。Once perm job secured , i'll start learning asap :p 这也是我唯一可以做到的事情吧。

once again , 谢谢你所为我做的一切，你表弟我永生难忘！